I am realizing that I am an addict. I used alcohol to self medicate in the past, but never became dependent and for whatever reason, recognized it as destructive and left it alone, and then used in moderation.
However, during depression, a friend trying to cheer me up took me to a casino on a weekend. At first, I felt bad loosing $40 on slot machines, but still enjoyed. Repeated this a couple of times for entertainment.
Then when feeling bad alone during the day, went alone. Very quickly I was self medicating with this. I was numbing out. It was not about winning although that was great on many occassions. If I did win big, it was a boost. It numbs physical and emotional pain. But the pain returns when the behavior stops. It allowed me to escape negative feelings and focus on the machine. Sometimes I would be up $1000 and keep playing until I lost it all.
We with ptsd are very prone to finding an escape, of self medicating through alcohol, drugs, sex, shopping, gambling, food, etc. We will find what suits us best. Wanting to escape is a normal reaction to trauma. Yet not everyone with ptsd will become addicted to something. Many people have managed their symptoms better than me and addiction has not become an issue for them. If you are thinking that it may be a problem, try giving it up and see what happens.