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All I Want For Christmas... Not!

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My brother and his wife coming over the day after Christmas.

We are estranged, and although I care about him, and like her, I am not comfortable with him at the best of times (and don't know her well enough to be comfortable). But it is especially bad, because in the last month, I contacted him to get some help in his profession, and he was so fast in responding it was unbelievable.

Then things went bad for us (my partner and I) and kind of fell apart, and I had to ask for his help, guidance, advice, anything. It was like stripping down to my underwear in front of him, and very hard for me to do (which I said, not the underwear part, but that it was hard for me to say) and I had to disclose a number of personal details. He could have just said "I'm really sorry that things turned out that way, but there is nothing I can do." I would have been ok with any type of reasonable response.

But he just ignored it.

I was never comfortable with him before, just wanted to hide. Now, it is like 1000 times worse, and I will be alone for the first time in 7 years this Christmas, because my partner (who admittedly is going to be having an even worse Christmas than I will) and I aren't seeing each other until January. So I don't even have that support, which even without this would make it extremely difficult for me.

I'd be quite happy to never see my brother again for as long as I live, because that was just humiliating when he completely ignored me, even though I was so uncomfortable.

Doesn't help that he was speedy fast when he thought it could benefit one of his "colleagues".

Yuck. I keep trying to think of ways I can avoid this terrible situation, but I can't come up with a viable reason to get out of it.
 
God Phoenix, yet again, the similarities with my own predicament here are uncanny. I too am confronting the possibility (admittedly not the certainty as in your case) of having to spend time with my brother and his family over the Christmas break period. Our relationship, formerly as healthy and positive as it is possible to be given our past, plummetted to utter horror this year, as the indirect result of my having severed contact with our parents. My formerly composed rational successful dedicated family man brother turned into an aggressive, drug-taking, suicidal monster almost overnight, terrorised me intermittently for months, all but abandoned his family, and has since somewhat calmed to a state of simmering, impossible-to-read silence.

His wife is desperate for me to spend time with them - she has some sort of Pollyanna view of how I can facilitate a miraculous "healing" within their family, a view advocated by her psychologist...

Sorry, am highjacking this thread and I don't mean to, but all that to say that I am confronting the same dread-filled anguish at how to make it through this encounter that you are, and there's not much I wouldn't do to avoid the whole scenario right now, except that i feel it would only be delaying the inevitable.

All I want for Christmas indeed... as if the horrible assault of flashbacks and memories and associations, the impending absence of my T and most of my other support network and the prospect of my first ever Christmas alone, aren't bad enough.

And people wonder why I'm a scruge!!

Maddog
 
A repeat incident of finding an injured crow which I tried to help by putting it in our basement in a box. After our meal I went to check on it and it hadn't survived.
No Christmas Miracles here....
 
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