Almost, But Not Just Yet

[Shiver]

So, I started considering therapy for ptsd a while ago. I went to a new therapist and that didn't end well. Today I had an appointment with a therapist that I already knew. He told me that he doesn't quite do long treatments anymore (only about 3 to 4 sessions). He does want to help to find someone, and that's okay I think.

Just want to say: it's freaking hard. I'm not that motivated right now, and it kinda brings me down everytime I hear that I have to wait. I just want to ignore everything, just move on. Rationally, I know I need therapy, but emotionally, I'm tired...

Just don't know what to do :(

 

[ladee]

@Shiver, it's so hard to hang in there when we know we need therapy and can't seem to connect or are met with closed doors... I would try to look at it like the right one is waiting for you.... Just keep looking... you don't even have to feel like it... just don't give up on yourself. And we know ignoring doesn't work... so use the forum until you find the right person.. you are worth having a good T.... you will find one.. sending you energy to keep looking and gentle hugs for trying so hard to get your life on track....:hug:

 

[Shiver]

I've sent emails to 2 possible T's. One has answered already, it's possible to make an appointment... There is hope I think.

Just gets me thinking about how hard it must be to find help when you're not already in the 'mental health' system. I can get referrals quite easily, but I wouldn't know what to do if that wasn't the case. Not that I suggest getting yourself into the ER and stuff... Not fun.

Hope's up!

 

[ladee]

Good to hear !!! Let us know... don't disappear 5 minutes before the miracle happens !!

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

It's hard, but if we get on a healing path, it's well worth the effort.

 

[Shiver]

Yesterday I had an appointment with a female therapist. It went quite okay, but some things were hard on me. It's hard for me to have a female therapist and there are a few things that remind me of certain things. I'm going to continue searching...

 

[watundah]

Hang in there. It is a very important relationship and a huge step.in the right direction so interview 10 people if that's what it takes. You're worth it!!

 

[Deleted member 34328]

So proud of you! I don't know about you, but a lot of the time I have trouble seeing the small victories and owning them... so yay you! Please keep us in the loop.

 

[Shiver]

Update: I had 2 sessions with the female therapist I spoke about earlier, it didn't work out, we decided to stop. In the meantime I've contacted other T's, they all have a waiting list. The shortest waiting list is a few months (as in: the end of September), the longest is at least until January. So yay... I kinda gave up for a month. I don't really know if I will still be motivated then, and I really don't want to start therapy while studying (I have a 2-month vacation right now).

Anyways, I made an appointment to meet one of the therapists next thursday. Just to see if that might work, after that I'll have to wait.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Thanks for the update. Meeting a new therapist doesn't always mean a sure fit. Glad you're holding your head up...taking another chance.

You're awesome!