Sufferer Alone, anxious, and edgy. History of incestuous sexual assault and emotional abuse, recently assaulted by patient.

[Suddenly Shaky]

Hi, I've just joined. I have a history of incestuous sexual assault and emotional abuse. It's been buried deep, deep, down. I was not believed by my family. I literally grew up thinking I was this troublemaker, liar, and faker.

Recently, I had been assaulted working as a psych nurse. I was attacked, strangled, and silenced by my patient. I've received a brain injury, have double vision which makes reading difficult and migraine inducing, and have been diagnosed with PTSD. During the Ford vs Kavanaugh hearing in the senate committee I started shaking and crying in anger and everything in my past boiled out. Still now, listening to my doctor tell me that all my symptoms are PTSD related, as though they weren't real. I don't want to keep living like this. Isn't it terrible living like this? I had another night terror last night and the loss of good sleep makes me feel like I in a haze of fear, despair and uselessness.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

I'm sorry you have a need for a place like this but I'm glad you found us! Welcome to the Forum.

PTSD...It's a hell of it's own, but it's not without hope. It takes time, therapy, maybe meds, and refusing to give up. Reaching out helps tremendously since it's the one way that always works to get us out of our own heads. At least for awhile.

You aren't alone here...

 

[littleoc]

I like your username.

Welcome to the forums. :hug: I’m so sorry about the recent events and the past events — but it’s so wonderful that you’re reaching out and seeking support. Hang in there. It really does get better. In the meantime, I’m so glad you’re here. :hug:

 

[Ronin]

Hello, welcome. :)

Sorry for what brought you here but glad you found us.

Can you get a second opinion on vision changes and neuro issues? It's not something they should neglect.

PTSD gets easier. Flare here and there, rough patches, but easier. So hang in there. :)