My earliest memory is of coming like out of a stupor. I know I wasn't asleep but I don't know if I went inside my head or where exactly my mind was. I just remembering coming out of it as my abuser finished up with me. And then I buried that memory until I realized something very wrong had been done to me.
Lately I feel like I am going into my head a lot. Someone can be talking to me and them I am off thinking in my head and just not hearing them. I get so caught up in my head at times that I look at the clock and panic because 10 minutes has become an hour or more. It's not like I entirely leave reality but I am stuck up in my head with whatever is going on in there. The other day at the store I had a moment where I was up there and I even pushed the decline button for my card. I left thinking how did I manage that? This past year or so I have been so distracted at times that I have ran over my phone with my car, lost multiple cards, bumped into a pole damaging my headlights, lost my id, at one point I can even remember freaking out a little that I couldn't remember my current address totally.
Lately I feel like I am going into my head a lot. Someone can be talking to me and them I am off thinking in my head and just not hearing them. I get so caught up in my head at times that I look at the clock and panic because 10 minutes has become an hour or more. It's not like I entirely leave reality but I am stuck up in my head with whatever is going on in there. The other day at the store I had a moment where I was up there and I even pushed the decline button for my card. I left thinking how did I manage that? This past year or so I have been so distracted at times that I have ran over my phone with my car, lost multiple cards, bumped into a pole damaging my headlights, lost my id, at one point I can even remember freaking out a little that I couldn't remember my current address totally.