Hey guys, I’ve been dealing with CPTSD and extreme Adult Separation anxiety my whole life. I’m a 28 year old male with Asperger’s.
After 10 years of battling through unnecessary pain and building the capacity to forge on, I’ve let up and dove deep into mindfulness.
I believe Mindfulness and Strength are each valuable tool sets to be used when appropriate. I found that focusing on one without the other didn’t serve me, and brought different symptoms to the surface.
When I was 3 years old, I was separated from my mother and was raised from 3-18 by a physically and emotionally abusive woman. At 22 years old, she drank herself to death.
This was all extremely difficult to understand and process, especially with Aspbergers. There’s a lot more to this story, but I won’t over-do it right now.
I want to share some of my discoveries and pondering on how I identify and process emotions. I experience fight or flight triggers daily, usually stemming from situations where I can’t detect connection with those around me. I’ve overcome a tremendous amount of separation anxiety and the brunt of triggers but still have intense surges of fear and anxiety on a daily basis.
This experience comes from the dedication and fortitude developed over a decade of holding my ground against an unending torrent of feelings. I am a practitioner of mindfulness diligently mapping out a grid of what’s happening inside. I recorded a video that I’d like to share, but if it’s not appropriate, I’ll type these thoughts out.
I would love it if you can add, challenge or support my understanding so I can better find the truth of what’s happening. Keep in mind that I see the world a little different than most due to Aspbergers. Most of my understanding and ability to connect with my emotions has been hard-won over many painful mistakes.
After 10 years of battling through unnecessary pain and building the capacity to forge on, I’ve let up and dove deep into mindfulness.
I believe Mindfulness and Strength are each valuable tool sets to be used when appropriate. I found that focusing on one without the other didn’t serve me, and brought different symptoms to the surface.
When I was 3 years old, I was separated from my mother and was raised from 3-18 by a physically and emotionally abusive woman. At 22 years old, she drank herself to death.
This was all extremely difficult to understand and process, especially with Aspbergers. There’s a lot more to this story, but I won’t over-do it right now.
I want to share some of my discoveries and pondering on how I identify and process emotions. I experience fight or flight triggers daily, usually stemming from situations where I can’t detect connection with those around me. I’ve overcome a tremendous amount of separation anxiety and the brunt of triggers but still have intense surges of fear and anxiety on a daily basis.
This experience comes from the dedication and fortitude developed over a decade of holding my ground against an unending torrent of feelings. I am a practitioner of mindfulness diligently mapping out a grid of what’s happening inside. I recorded a video that I’d like to share, but if it’s not appropriate, I’ll type these thoughts out.
I would love it if you can add, challenge or support my understanding so I can better find the truth of what’s happening. Keep in mind that I see the world a little different than most due to Aspbergers. Most of my understanding and ability to connect with my emotions has been hard-won over many painful mistakes.
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