Annihilation Anxiety???

[Ronin]

<grins> What we make them do.

Back to the land of choice. Uplifting in some contexts, teethed & tangled in others. :dead::roflmao:

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

@shimmerz , I talked to my therapist about annihilation anxiety today. She looked it up yesterday when I e-mailed her. She said that is seems to be an older reference, probably freudian, to people trying to explain very early trauma. She also said that it sounds like a lot of what my parts are struggling with and scared by. So even though it is referenced a lot on the Internet currently with attachment disorder in children, implications seem to be it was an attempt at explain was was going on with people with complex traumas. She also wanted me to put a disclaimer in that she's not an expert, but does think it is an interesting concept that can help explain a lot of what I am feeling.

 

[shimmerz]

Boy, I really appreciate that JEK! Thank you so much! I absolutely appreciate that she was willing to share her opinion and it was smart to do the disclaimer thing. So did she feel then that this model was actually old and replaced with Complex Trauma?

The thing is I get these times where it is like an attack..... of sliding down the rabbit hole. Do you get those types of feelings?

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Boy, I really appreciate that JEK! Thank you so much! I absolutely appreciate that she was willing t...

I think her point was more that complex trauma hasn't replaced, it but rather there are different words to describe the experiences. I should have written down what she said. She agreed that it was a good description of those feelings of "sliding down the rabbit hole" as you put it (yes, I do get those feelings). She just said it's not a commonly used term any more.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Wow, I can really relate to this but had no words for! Thank you!

This also might be a huge reason I have a possible diagnosis of Atrachment Disorder (other than the reasons i already knew about).

 

[ms spock]

I read the article posted to this thread and I am finding this thread very helpful at this time. To go here and learn to slowly sit with this, seems to be the next part of the journey for me.

 

[sun seeker]

Haven't read all of this yet, but I think I have the opposite. When I get into a very deep despair, I want to stop existing. Not just not live, but not exist.

Wonder where one comes from as opposed to the other?

 

[shimmerz]

Me too Sun. I think because I am not afraid of death. Been there, done that. Was peaceful in comparison.

 

[ms spock]

The Patterns of Functioning of the Child with Attachment Disorder (AD) was really confronting and challenging for me - I do a lot of that stuff in that article. That is what I am working on now. I am upping my Mindfulness wrapped, cocoon like, in a doona and it really helps me. I can feel healing take place at a very, very, very deep level that is almost outside of my consciousness.

 

[ms spock]

I am really struggling with this at the moment. I want to step out of this into another space.

 

[shimmerz]

Dis-integration

Just to expand on this.... but think it deserves a thread of its own as I am trying to get to something here.

 

[ms spock]

I am thinking a lot on this - it is helpful that this thread is here at this time as I know I am not alone!