Anxiety/Dread

[whiteraven]

Filled with this intense sense of dread...like something bad is going to happen. Only specific thing that comes to mind are the smoke alarms going off in the middle of the night. I am terrified of creating noise with other people around. Not sure why. Very afraid of drawing attention. What if I did? They'd be mad. Or afraid, and it would be my fault. I think it's more than that, though. It's like the noise, whatever it is, will awaken someone.

I notice that I am constantly on guard, listening, paying attention. I don't think I so much notice it except when something happens that causes me to question. Then I realize every muscle is tense and every noise is analyzed.

I am so scared.

 

[osiris]

*sits with you*

 

[whiteraven]

*sits with you*

Thank you, @osiris.

 

[osiris]

No worries. Would it help to talk anything out?

 

[whiteraven]

No worries. Would it help to talk anything out?

I'm a little better since I posted. It really does help to put it out there sometimes. Of course, I might just be super tired. LOL Thanks for being here, @osiris. I'll probably be back here in the morning to explore this a little more.

 

[osiris]

I'm a little better since I posted. It really does help to put it out there sometimes. Of course, I might just be super tired.

Glad you’re feeling a little better.
Yeah, I’m starting to realise that just saying you’re struggling is better than thinking it and being stuck in your own head.
Hope you get some restful sleep.