I had some shocking news about a friends ex on the weekend, I don't even know the man but it brought me flashbacks, intrusive thoughts, anxiety, worries, everything really.
I keep telling myself to grow a spine and get on with things but when I think of driving (new driver passed in june) I get these thoughts of crashing into someone whether they be in a car or a pedestrian or someone crashing into me. I've never been in an accident of any kind with a car, closest I've been is not putting hand brake on and rolling back a few inches for a second.
I hate myself right now because I don't feel settled anywhere, not in my boyfriends, not on my own, I can't see my friends because I can't get in the car and I've made myself a prisoner in my boyfriends for the past few days. I feel so guilty that I'm not spending time with loved ones.
I have tried pretty much every prescribed drug for months at a time for each tablet and I can't go down that route anymore. I've had hundreds of hours of counselling and I've had a fair few hypnotherapy sessions too.
I'm isolated in my own mind and can't switch it off.
Maybe more counselling or a driving lesson in my car? I'm at a loss. I can barely get myself out of bed.
Prisoner in my own mind, I hate myself and I don't know what to do.
Any advice would be great especially with the driving.
I keep telling myself to grow a spine and get on with things but when I think of driving (new driver passed in june) I get these thoughts of crashing into someone whether they be in a car or a pedestrian or someone crashing into me. I've never been in an accident of any kind with a car, closest I've been is not putting hand brake on and rolling back a few inches for a second.
I hate myself right now because I don't feel settled anywhere, not in my boyfriends, not on my own, I can't see my friends because I can't get in the car and I've made myself a prisoner in my boyfriends for the past few days. I feel so guilty that I'm not spending time with loved ones.
I have tried pretty much every prescribed drug for months at a time for each tablet and I can't go down that route anymore. I've had hundreds of hours of counselling and I've had a fair few hypnotherapy sessions too.
I'm isolated in my own mind and can't switch it off.
Maybe more counselling or a driving lesson in my car? I'm at a loss. I can barely get myself out of bed.
Prisoner in my own mind, I hate myself and I don't know what to do.
Any advice would be great especially with the driving.
