Anyone Else Always Searching?

[Sing2me]

So it would seem it is something in most of us that have experienced trauma. Perhaps it is because we can no longer relate to those around us. I keep a bag of clothes and nececcissities in my car for that sporadic moment I decide to take a trip. And @Tanisqh I'm well thank you. Hope you are also

 

[Friday]

I don't know we can jump to that correlation out of hand, even though it may be a trend... I know a lot of people who go the exact opposite route. From the extreme of agoraphobia to their home is their castle.

 

[Tanishq]

@Cherokee yes I am well today. :)

Trauma tends to alter our whole life, so yes we may no longer relate to those around us. Mine life has been different, from the day I was born in this family I never could get along. I searched a lot and found somethings. They all were carrying toxic and negative ways. This is the reason I can never get along with them. Gosh, I am glad I left them all in once.

Are you nomadic? People who move from places to places? Just a question. Hope you don't mind.

 

[shimmerz]

When my children were younger I remember saying 'I want to go home'. My youngest child caught me once and said 'but Mommy this is your home'. It was not. It was theirs, not mine. Since they have left home after growing up - it is impossible for me it seems to put down roots. My car feels like my home somehow.

 

[afuneralinmybrain]

@Cherokee Oh, I don't doubt it! A lot of people, especially in the US, don't know. I was just trying to let you know. It's okay.

 

[WillyKat]

It's a complex thing, this idea of moving in the hopes of starting over. On the one hand, if we constantly run into people that hurt us or even, then moving is a good idea. On the other hand, if we're easily hurt by anyone, then wherever you go you'll find people that hurt you.

For the record, I've moved a few times, mostly because of college, grad school, etc. I've also changed jobs several times and sometimes that can make a world of difference. Then again, one job becomes a lot like the last job and unless you find one that's perfect (unlikely)…

The town I lived in where the abuse occurred was about 2000 people. Even worse, we didn't live in town but in a group of a few houses, in one of which lived the family of evil. We moved then to a town of about 15,000, which was a big improvement, but by the time I was out of high school I couldn't wait to leave and get away from people that didn't seem to have any empathy.

Now I live in a suburb of a very large metropolitan area. It happens to be a place that "they" say is very accepting, tolerant, etc, etc… well, up to a point. There are all sorts of exceptions.

 

[Smile]

@Cherokee , I TOTALLY get you. I've traveled so much of my life. In my current "home" for 9 months now. I mentioned it to my T once and he suggested that it could be the urge to self protect ourselves. Meaning we live somewhere for a while, obtain negative triggers, and than feel that need/urge to get away from those negative reminders.

Something to chew on...

 

[Sarah542]

OMG yes I feel like I'm longing for my freedom. I've been feeling this for a long time. I just want to be free.

 

[Sing2me]

@Sarah542 I couldn't have said it better myself. That's exactly what I meant.

 

[Sarah542]

@Cherokee
This really did catch my attention. I remember writing " I just want to be free" in my diary. I kept religiously or 3 months then just dropped it. I think its weird how I imagine being free is like flying or running.
Random question, your profile picture is of a horse/pony. Is that your pony?

 

[Sing2me]

No it isn't I wish though. I have 6 tattoos all of them have wings speaking of flying. I think the same thoughts. Actually have a poem I wrote about being a flightless bird. And I did train horses, and really love them. I can understand their need to fight or flight.

 

[Sarah542]

wow, which method? I was studying horses in my Univeristy! :D Love them to bits. Want to understand them more. You write poems often?