I’ve noticed a change in my behaviour which began approximately 4-5 years ago. I am in my mid 40’s now.
I have these moments where I have an idea, I drop pretty much everything else in pursuit of this idea because it becomes the priority. It is the star of the show.
I pursue it, research, spend money on it.. only to come to the realisation days or weeks after I begin that it was an impossible idea and no person with common sense would have pursued it.
I never used to be like this, I have always been calm and calculated, always been self employed and usually approaching ideas fully prepared and planned from start to finish, and more times than not getting it right.
As an example, last year I got into my head that I was going to move abroad to a country I’d never been to, had no connections to, didn’t speak a word of the language and was not in a financial situation to even consider it.
But somehow I was totally convinced that I was moving and had formulated a fool proof plan. I was going to purchase vehicle diagnostic equipment, move to this country within the next few months and start a business diagnosing vehicle faults.
I was going to rent a unit, find somewhere to live all with perhaps a months worth of living funds at most. And I’d hit the ground running and make lots of profit.
I proceeded to source the equipment needed, I travelled hundreds of miles and spent a few grand on the equipment and made plans to learn how to use it expertly.
My whole mood changes during this time I become positive and hopeful, looking forward to this sure thing coming to fruition. I’m even planning what I will spend my first profits on. Im living in a fantasy.
This went on for about week, and then I snapped out of it and realised how totally unrealistic my thinking had been and the time and money I’d wasted on an impossible pipe dream which had consumed me.
I can’t put it down to just not being very good at these sort of things because that was never the case before.
I have these moments where I have an idea, I drop pretty much everything else in pursuit of this idea because it becomes the priority. It is the star of the show.
I pursue it, research, spend money on it.. only to come to the realisation days or weeks after I begin that it was an impossible idea and no person with common sense would have pursued it.
I never used to be like this, I have always been calm and calculated, always been self employed and usually approaching ideas fully prepared and planned from start to finish, and more times than not getting it right.
As an example, last year I got into my head that I was going to move abroad to a country I’d never been to, had no connections to, didn’t speak a word of the language and was not in a financial situation to even consider it.
But somehow I was totally convinced that I was moving and had formulated a fool proof plan. I was going to purchase vehicle diagnostic equipment, move to this country within the next few months and start a business diagnosing vehicle faults.
I was going to rent a unit, find somewhere to live all with perhaps a months worth of living funds at most. And I’d hit the ground running and make lots of profit.
I proceeded to source the equipment needed, I travelled hundreds of miles and spent a few grand on the equipment and made plans to learn how to use it expertly.
My whole mood changes during this time I become positive and hopeful, looking forward to this sure thing coming to fruition. I’m even planning what I will spend my first profits on. Im living in a fantasy.
This went on for about week, and then I snapped out of it and realised how totally unrealistic my thinking had been and the time and money I’d wasted on an impossible pipe dream which had consumed me.
I can’t put it down to just not being very good at these sort of things because that was never the case before.
