Article In Magazine Sets Me Off For Over A Week~

[raindownonme]

I cant even discuss on what it was about , but it triggered fears and memories in me beyond.
I have not slept , taken my meds properly , slept or ate right , since i read article week ago , i have just been in a major trigger than almost drove me to thoughts of serious suicidal thoughts , just really negative thinking and shaking , sweating , wanting to throw up but did not , just awful days , these last few have been , but then i found this forum , my bf was me to get treatment for this , take me to a phychitrist and get control over my PTSD & get help with financails, i have been plaqued by this anxiety so bad i have lost everything , and have not been able to work , as i had agoraphobia for years isolating from everything and everyone . i cant write anymore, i just want to know are psychitrist good for PTSD and should i go see them and will meds help PTSD at all , and if so what ~ thankyou .

 

[TigerPride]

I don't know the answers to your questions, but I didn't want you to fell like you weren't being heard...

People keep telling me I need to go to a Therapist, but I simply can't afford it, plus I don't do well talking in front of people....so here I am, I type my fellings and thoughts, & the feedback from other members does help.

In the end the decision is yours, if you are financially able to seek out a therapist, by all means go for it. If not come here, post your thoughts and questions, and maybe start your on private journal.

There's light at the end of the tunnel, it's just a matter of working our way through,:)

 

[raindownonme]

Thankyou so very much TigerPride , to tell you the truth I was really bummed I had not gotten any responses , I even thought of not coming back , but thats okaye , i am not a eloquent writer & surely not right now , as I am thinking I dissoociate when I am triggered , all I do know is I cant really put my thoughts down really very well , all I do know is I am full of panic and fear , I did some yoga & self talk last night to make it through ~
I appreciate you responding to me , I am not really wanting to go to a therapist as I feel to sick to go ahaa , but my man wants me to go , so i can get a diag , so I can maybe get some financial aid & maybe some medications that could help me when I have a panic attack , I think this is his reasoning , I am terrified of doctors so I go into panic & medicines scare me for addiction part and also maybe bad reaction or something , I have turned into just one big phobia ~ the rules here scare me because I dont write well , but I am super sensitive right now .thankyou TigerPride

 

[TigerPride]

Yes "white coat phobia" (fear of Doctors) can be hard to deal with. I hate going and usually don't unless I just absolutley have to...I think most people have certain level of white coat phobia, just some cases are more extreme then others. So don't fell bad about being afraid, your not alone.

The list of medications to treat anxiety, panic attacks and so forth is rather long, and the list of possible side affects are even longer. I am on something for my anxiety, but only take it when I just totally have to, because yes it can be very addictive. You just have to be careful with it, & use as prescribed.

As far as side effects, if you do go & they give you something. Read the possible side effects so you are aware of what the possiblites are, but don't let them scare you. There are side effects with everything from medicine to hand soap. The drug maufactors have to list every possible side effect to cover the behinds from law suits.

And I don't write well either, I'm sure I have mis-spelled a lot in this reply.:O_o:
The deal with basic grammer is, when you are stressed, paniced, traumatized, ect. the brain does not compute information as well as your average person. So breaking things down into paragraphs makes it's eaiser for one to understand and comprehend. Even under normal circumstances when someone is rational and thinking clearly it is still hard to understand and read.
That's the reasoning behind the 'basic grammer' rule. It's not to single anyone out or to make anyone fell bad. It's to make it easier on the reader to understand.

Don't throw in the towel just yet on this site, hang around, and I will keep an eye out for you and try to help as best as I can. :)

 

[NIKI]

HI Raindownonme,

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time.

Please don't leave...because if you are not seeing a T and are isolating this will be a place that may be of much help to you.

NIKI :)

 

[Glockster37]

It is hard to make the decision to see a doc. It took me two years (being home from combat) before I made the decison to go and my oldest son had a lot do with it. He handed me the phone and said dad you need help. I have found that the doc I see more just listens to what I have to say. Not that he is disinterested but he is trying to figure out where I am coming from and what maybe causing my anger and other PTSD issues. It has helped me a lot. Maybe going to see a doc with your boy friend may help you. I presumed that was what bf meant.

 

[Kb3]

Hi raindownonme,

I'm sorry I didn't see your post the other day and I hope that you are feeling a little better than you were.

There's a lot of people in the same boat here and don't let your first experience put you off the site, there's plenty of support. Maybe you could search some key words that apply to your situation in and see if anyone is discussing an issue relevant to you? Sometimes it's easier to join a thread than start one.

Good luck and keep writing, we'd love to hear more from you.

 

[jersey]

Welcome raindownonme,

Hang out with us for a while, I think you will find you are not alone.

 

[raindownonme]

Thankyou all very much . I am exhausted to much to write tonight . Just wanted to drop in and say , Thankyou for all your caring post. I will be back , I have company for the weekend and probably will not be on until next week sometime. All have a safe & fun weekend.
O several good things have happened , i got a facial today & get my hair done tomorrow , I was in such panic about driving in rush hour traffic & in the rain to my appointment , that my bf got his brother to take me , wasnt that so very kind , I have never had that kind of love before in my life and I am finding that also causes panic and pain of fear like nothing I have ever known . Talk to you all next week , again good safe fun weekend everyone & thanks again . raindownonme

 

[TigerPride]

good to hear back from you, been thinking about you....you have a good weekend as well. :D

 

[ifonly]

Hey Raindownonme

I'm sorry that magazine article triggered you - I copped a similar trigger 7 days ago, it's taken 6 days to move thru it. I'm still not out of the woods but I'm getting there. The thing that helped the most was discovering this forum. Seriously, it was. I wish I'd found it earlier.

I found people here who could relate, people with similar feelings, anxieties to mine. Please stay with us a while and see how it works out for you.

Re therapy - it works for me but it's an individual thing. I had to test drive a few before I found someone who I clicked with & vice versa. A T might prescribe meds for you after a few visits - but if they do, that's OK b/c meds are not considered life-long, long term solutions. They are short term(ish) to get you over the hump.

In many cases, therapy is not always a quick fix. It can be draining BUT it can also be extremely rewarding. I've found it phenomenally beneficial & I highly recommend it.

Also, if you decide to see a therapist, try to find one who specialises in PTSD if possible. When you ring around, ask them what techniques/styles they use (cognitive behavoural therapy, for example), ask them how long the sessions are etc. Also find out if any of it is claimable. If you are not working, it might be provided as a free service?

I hope this helps. How are you feeling about things?? :)

 

[ifonly]

It took me two years (being home from combat) before I made the decison to go and my oldest son had a lot do with it. He handed me the phone and said dad you need help.

Big shout out to your son, Glockster, and cudos to you because you not only listened to him, you acknowledged what he said/did and acted on it.

This is the kind of stuff I love reading about :) ie people who care enough for others to say "let me help you."
And people who care back enough to say, "OK, I accept your help."

:)