Auditory Flashback?

[Heather]

This really freaked me out, Bad. Yesterday I was watching a movie and I'd seen it before. The lady was looking in the closet and I heard a man's voice (it was such a creepy voice) say, "ollie, ollie oxen free". I couldn't understand why she didn't react.

Then I understood that the voice wasn't coming from the t.v. I looked out the window but no one was there. There was no one in the hallway of my apartment.

So, what I heard must have been a flashback. Then the emotions hit and I became really scared. The rest of the day I vascillated between being hysterical and crying and then feeling completely numb.

When I talked to my therapist today he said it was an auditory hallucination. Does anyone know if that's the same as a flashback? Anyone have this kind of experience?

Any thoughts would be much appreciated. Thanks.

 

[BigBear]

I know that some people have had similar. In some cases, I believe that they flashed on a nightmare that became its own trauma. In other words, it doesn't have to have happened to you for you to flash on it. It would however probably be symbolic of a real trauma. "Is an AH and a FB the same thing?" I'm sorry, but I don't know.

Sending you Strength!

Bear

 

[BloomInWinter]

((((Heather)))))

I'm so sorry that happened to you!

This thread is triggering me bad...I hear children crying and screaming so often...it drives me insane.

 

[Kintsugi]

I also often hallucinate children or young girls screaming. I am glad that I now have Annie and she can verify what is real and what is not.

I had one auditory hallucination that was NOT AT ALL related to any of my abusers, but it definitely may have related to a dream. I was getting into my car in a gravel parking lot next to a pond with no one around it and just cars going by on the road. I heard this laugh, like a hyena only a man, and it seemed to be coming from everywhere. It just rang through and I heard it like it was really real. I just couldn't tell where it was coming from, which scared me the most. I wanted to search the back of my car but I was afraid to turn around and afraid to get out, sitting with the door open and frozen. I was so convinced that someone was there that I actually called out a few times asking who was there and what the f*ck did they want. I have never felt so crazy or confused or terrified. It was so very scary and I feel for you.

(((Heather)))

 

[Heather]

What scares me the most in hearing things that are coming from inside my head. Does that mean it's like a psychosis or something? A split from reality? Am I truly losing my mind?

Because when I told my therapist that and he said it was an auditory hallucination. He said, "oh no" or something like that. which kinda freaked me out. For him to be saying that.

 

[Kintsugi]

Auditory hallucinations are the most common types of hallucinations. I wouldn't get too too worried? My fiance once turned to me and said, "Do you know how I know I'm crazy? There are church bells outside your window." Of course, there were no church bells. Sometimes he gets a little perturbed when he can't tell the difference between a hallucination and reality, but once he differentiates, all he can do is shrug his shoulders. I like telling him I can't hear things that I really do hear every once in a while because it will end in a grin from him.

 

[BigBear]

What scares me the most in hearing things that are coming from inside my head. Does that mean it's like a psychosis or something? A split from reality? Am I truly losing my mind?

Because when I told my therapist that and he said it was an auditory hallucination. He said, "oh no" or something like that. which kinda freaked me out. For him to be saying that.

I wouldn't think is was any different than body memory. As a mater of a fact, I'd equate them strongly. Your body is just remembering a sound so strongly that it seems to be real.

Bear

 

[Zemi]

Heather what you described seemed more like what you said - an auditory flashback. Bringing something to recall that you had heard before and that is somewhere hidden (trapped?) in your mind that was somehow set off by watching the movie. Hearing things in your head IS scary; but it can be all kinds of different things no matter what conclusions some people jump to (and some therapists like to add 1 and 1 and make 20 when it comes to internal voices). Examples would be things like where it's something you've heard before that you are now playing back (which this sounds like), words you've heard so many times that you keep replaying them even when they are no longer being said out loud, your own thoughts playing "louder", and yes at the other end of those examples would be different levels of dissociation. None of that means you are losing your mind *hug*.

 

[OKRADLAK]

I wish I would have them. Any break from reality would be something in which I would indulge. I can't do drugs, so it's just me and this bloody nightmare 24/7

 

[Heather]

I'm still hearing things that aren't there. I thought I heard squirrels digging at a basket behind me and then thought maybe it was the cat but remembered she was in the hallway. I checked. Nothing was there making that sound.

Then last night I heard glass breaking outside. The first time I dismissed it as nothing. The second time I heard it I thought someone had to be breaking into one of the apartments downstairs. I called 911 and the police showed up. They said they would check it out but found nothing. After they left I heard it a THIRD time and this time a voice said, "and I want my money". I wanted to call the police back and tell them I heard it again but I was soooo very afraid because I couldn't distinguish my reality from what was really going on and that scared me. So, I didn't call. I feel like I'm going mad.

And just a little while ago I heard a man screaming.