Away I Float On My Private Disassociation Cloud

[Coast]

It's a strange feeling, this disassociation cloud. Very hard to explain. Like a little cloud floating into my world and floating out again, with me on it.

Anyone else get this, or just me being weird?

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Wish you would try to explain a little more. I don't understand. try again?

 

[kers]

I get it. Sometimes for me it feels like I am turning inside out, sometimes it feels like I am going up like a balloon and my brain and my self are getting smaller and smaller. Sometimes I feel wooden and far away.

Dissociation is a sign that something is scaring or triggering you. What's going on? Sometimes for me, just being able to step back and see what is happening reduces the effects of the dissociation.

 

[Jade-]

It's a strange feeling, but I actually prefer it to the constant anxiety. I'd much rather feel nothing.

 

[catjudo]

Lately, for me, it's as though my body is in one place, my mind is floating somewhere above and I'm just watching life and the rest of the world carry on around me. I feel very disconnected from both myself and everything that is going on around me.

 

[Coast]

I'd like to explain Ayesha, but I can't put it particularly well. I just don't have the words, it's very hard to explain anything much about it beyond the terms "disassociation" and "float away" sorry about that.

Kers, it used to be a pretty explainable fear reaction, but I seem to have developed a massive issue with it now and I tend to just float off without due cause these days. I often wonder if I would meet the criteria for depersonalisation disorder because it happens a lot, increasingly so lately, although I'm certainly not planning to ask anyone official about it any time soon. I relate to feeling smaller by the way, like I'm smaller than my skin and I don't reach the edges to fill this form of mine out anymore.

Jadebear, I quite like it too, although I tend to think I probably ought not to... It's quite comfortable though... Actually if I'm very honest I like it better than that other state, the one they officially call healthy. I'm so glad to know I'm perhaps not the only one.

 

[Coast]

Oh and yes sorry nearly missed Catjudo... I don't seem to get the above part myself, but the floaty and the not really in me parts is about the same yes.

 

[DontGiveUpOnMe]

Hmm. For me its not such a floaty feeling. It doesnt put me at ease at all.

Dissociating for me starts with me sinking in my chair because my head suddenly feels increadibly heavy like a brick. I cant repond to my surroundings and I cant remember anything, I almost always go into a flashback during that time.
Its mostly heaviness, and disorientation once I come back from the "heavy blackness".

The most frustrating form of dissociation is when I get a continuous de ja vu feeling. Like I go and come back sporadicly...so I keep having to "remember" where I am and what I am doing.