angymac1986
New Here
Hi guys just thought I'd share an experience with you and ask if anybody had a similar one.
This happened over a year ago. I am normally pretty calm during a flashback I just stare into space. However this one time a stranger came up and whispered something in my ear and i couldn't see her coming.
The flashback involved being attacked by my abuser. What the woman said could have been taken in two ways, one being a normal thing to say the other being a nasty thing to say. Normally I would have taken it as the normal thing to say (the way she meant it I believed) but at the time I thought she was meaning it in a horrible way. I felt like I was under attack and I started shouting at her where to go. Other people were trying to talk to me too, I felt cornered and like I had lost my faith in humanity and started lashing out (not physically) at anybody who came near me.
Afterwards when I was alone and I calmed down I felt guilty because I realise she didn't deserve that and it was all in my head. I also feel I can't go up to this woman because she might not believe me or understand me. :( Is this kind of thing typical of people with PTSD if they are startled...during a flashback more so. I am waiting to see a therapist and as of yet have no diagnosis.
This happened over a year ago. I am normally pretty calm during a flashback I just stare into space. However this one time a stranger came up and whispered something in my ear and i couldn't see her coming.
The flashback involved being attacked by my abuser. What the woman said could have been taken in two ways, one being a normal thing to say the other being a nasty thing to say. Normally I would have taken it as the normal thing to say (the way she meant it I believed) but at the time I thought she was meaning it in a horrible way. I felt like I was under attack and I started shouting at her where to go. Other people were trying to talk to me too, I felt cornered and like I had lost my faith in humanity and started lashing out (not physically) at anybody who came near me.
Afterwards when I was alone and I calmed down I felt guilty because I realise she didn't deserve that and it was all in my head. I also feel I can't go up to this woman because she might not believe me or understand me. :( Is this kind of thing typical of people with PTSD if they are startled...during a flashback more so. I am waiting to see a therapist and as of yet have no diagnosis.
