Bit Of A Rant

[greycrayon]

Just had a most frustrating day. I'm constantly caught between being bored and lonely and being overstimulated. I don't feel emotionally connected to my friends or that I want to seek out their company...but when I lie in bed all day my mood goes down. Im stuck in a cycle of doing things to raise my mood (though not really doing them to the most theraputic because I can't really engage or stop disociating) but then I get exhausted and have to stop doing things-literally in a state where I cant handle anything but staring blankly at a wall. So boring. Ugh. Just a rant about the problems that disconnectivity makes.

 

[ladee]

I understand that loop we get into sometimes.. I usually have to pick one small thing and do it. With no expectations of my self... just what ever happens, happens... but I wasn't staring at the wall... something different to stimulate the senses... I do understand..gentle hugs for where you are right now.. I get it.

 

[Silver.]

Can I ask what sort of things you are doing to keep your mind occupied? I had the same problem, and often times, I would get into something, and then not want to do it. It is hard, I understand. If you need someone to kick around some ideas to keep you busy, let me know. I've got a list of things and I've read other's ideas, and for the most part, it helps to chase away the boredom, the tediousness. I am sorry that this day has been so frustrating for you, it's a tough loop to be stuck in x

 

[Tinyflame]

Anxiety does that to me. A paralizing pressure cooker.

:hug: :hug:

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Irk... sorry for the day you're having. Sounds really hard! I get those too.

I would echo @Silver-lr what sort of things do have to keep your mind busy? Do you have any hobies? books? even a warm shower? I find those types of things helpful when I'm in a similar zone. I usually just putter around. Give myself permission to have a bad day. Try to own a victory when you just get out of bed. Sometimes that's my 1 thing to do. I also have a pet that needs tending to - I use him as an anti-anxiety bunny. Helps to vent at a sympathetic animal that will never tell my secrets.

Staying alone in bed alows your mind to get stuck in a circle that never lets go. Like a video reel that doesn't have an end. Very depressing.

I really feel for you.