I don't truly care about too many people these days... I've isolated from pretty much the whole world. They might care about me IDK??? But yes, it's like I feel like I have to defend myself, because I am utilizing resources (such as this service dog). This dog could have easily went to another vet. My comp and pen could easily be allocated elsewhere. It's taken me a long time to convince myself that what I went through was real and it did affect me (even if it didn't affect others), or maybe it did affect others and they're just "sucking it up". IDK either way combat changed me into a different person, less of a human being, if the doctors want to call it PTSD than fine it's PTSD. All the symptoms point to PTSD so I guess that's what it is. I'm just saying it wasn't the only trauma in my life. I don't know if it's cumulative, but if it is it makes me feel a whole lot better (stronger) that I've been through so many different traumatic events and here I am still here to talk about it. IDK maybe I just feel weak because my brothers walked away from the war unscathed and I did not.