Breakdown In Therapy?

[ex123]

Hi,
So yesterday I had my 3d session with my new therapist and he is great. I am dealing with ptsd from childhood abuse, and I don't show emotion easily, like at all, especially in front of new people. I told my therapist this, however I had just found out the my bio mom, whom I had a relationship with for three years, had faked her own suicide. (6 months ago, I got a note saying that she was dead) but then found out she faked it. So going into therapy I was a little frazzled, but next thing I know, I'm just crying a lot, but the weird part is now I don't remember our session, and I feel like a crazy person. I also feel like my therapist is going to think I'm weird or something, I don't know. I just have no idea what happened in that session, and why I can't remember it. Any input would be appreciated!

 

[Eagle3]

Sounds like dissociation to me. Happens all the time around here. If they're a good therapist, they'll understand. Just tell them either by email or next session what happened (how you don't remember), and why (extreme grief/shock/emotional...something). If this person is worth anything as a therapist, they'll be supportive and understanding.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Or they've dealt with this many times and will know just what you need to feel comfortable.

Maybe now that you've broken through an emotional barrier, you'll be able to move forward with more confidence.

Don't be afraid. These things happen.

 

[Muted]

I just have no idea what happened in that session, and why I can't remember it.

I've had similar types of sessions where I can't remember things, it's freaky!!

 

[Arebas]

Your therapist won't think you're weird. He will just think that you were under a lot of stress and a lot of pain and that you had to let it out. You should talk about that session and how you feel about it now. There was nothing wrong with that and actually not remembering it is not an unusual thing either. You needed it out, you didn't know how to do it consciously so your mind found the only way it knew to get that release without compromising you. It's quite a brilliant mechanism. But now that you are aware that it happened, your mind might be better prepared to talk about it without you "escaping" from it.

 

[Muted]

I agree with @Arebas and I also think it's a really good sign that you were able and comfortable enough to work on some of it. I don't think you would have if you didn't feel a basic sense of trust.

 

[Laurie2001]

Anyone dealing with trauma should get that. But its reassuring for me because I've had lots of times where I don't remember the sequence of sessions or exactly what's gone on and I never, ridiculously, linked it to trauma.
Sounds like something significant was reached inside you. Really really common. Maybe that happened because you fel