Can Someone Please Help Me With A Dissociation Question ?

[void]

Hi,

I am struggling at the moment and have a lot going on, I have had a very stressful year and it's...

No, No....my dear, you are not doing anything wrong at all.:hug:
It is completely OK that you dis. in therapy and not at home...that is very common.
Your primary that deals with your husband is meant to deal with him.
Your primary steps aside in therapy to let the 'others' explore and heal.
This is all VERY good.:)

This is not your fault!
NONE of this is your fault!
Dissociation is a gift...a survival gift...it is a good thing.
Without it you would have been destroyed.

Living that close to your abuser......ummm...WOW:wideeyed:...that must be soooooo hard:nailbiting::nailbiting:
It may be re-traumatizing you...have you thought about that???
You feel weak, but you have AMAZING strength.
Do you get that?
Could you and family move away from the toxic daily reminder of seeing your abuser?
It is really harming you both.

 

[anonymous]

Thank you for all your replies, I had forgotten I had written this. I was just lurking around and read nearly the whole post thinking wow this person is so much like me. Then I realised it was me, I had no idea I had written it that's how many my memory is. I seem to do things and it just doesn't sink in my brain, it just seems like I am living my entire life in auto pilot, looking from the outside as if I am functioning ok but inside there is nothing there. I feel like I have no idea what's going on, I have no memory of most of the things I do everyday. I wrote this back in July and even looking at the date I have no memory of writing it, i am still in therapy and still dissociation is a huge problem. I am just feeling so tired at the moment it seems to take so much out of me to just get through the day.

 

[Powder]

I can relate to this last post 100%, as if I wrote it, too. I have also caught myself reading my own posts, and diary entries, and other writing, and not realizing I wrote it. No memory of it.

 

[thestress]

Hi!

With me, dissociation is often gender related. For example, I'm always on guard with male presence. When I relax more with only women around me, it happens. Especially in theraphy. That means I feel safe and secure, and what's good in it, it's much easier to pin point what triggers it, and directly work the problem.

It has actually been very helpful to have those in a safe environment, so I'm more confident it's functioning correctly out there in the wild and I've managed to gain back the control before, so no worries if it happens on a public place :) there's no shame in surviving.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day.

 

[Carolynne]

Hi,

I am struggling at the moment and have a lot going on, I have had a very stressful year and it's...

It's okay. Honest. You can get through this you just haven't got all the tools yet. Keep speaking and listening and learning. I know how Terrifying this is when your in panic mode but my tool when I'm in this mode is to sink into it. My body knows what to do so I trust it. Even though one part of my mind is panicking I've learnt to let the chatter wash over me. I don't engage. I just feel my body and ignore my mind telling me what's going on. I found a tool and I know you can. Keep hunting x