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I'm working on this in therapy now. In addition to everything else.
Keeping safe right this minute... my kids are a big part of that. I can't let them know it, and I will never tell them this, but they are. They are also my incentive to keep my freakouts on the inside of my head.
After therapy this past week I am left still puzzled by the "thank you". I want to reach back into that session and grab his collar and demand to know why he thanked me. I never would grab anyone but that's how it feels.
I think that this coming week I will be talking about the cancer stuff. I am going to have to admit, to myself at least, that the medical stuff contributed to the entire abuse situation. Not intentionally, but it did reinforce the whole "no rights" thing and the "not allowed to refuse" thing.
Keeping safe right this minute... my kids are a big part of that. I can't let them know it, and I will never tell them this, but they are. They are also my incentive to keep my freakouts on the inside of my head.
After therapy this past week I am left still puzzled by the "thank you". I want to reach back into that session and grab his collar and demand to know why he thanked me. I never would grab anyone but that's how it feels.
I think that this coming week I will be talking about the cancer stuff. I am going to have to admit, to myself at least, that the medical stuff contributed to the entire abuse situation. Not intentionally, but it did reinforce the whole "no rights" thing and the "not allowed to refuse" thing.
