Can you stop dissociation?

[SeekingAfrica]

I am currently jobless and a work market state at the moment research sent me into some weird state. I tried to push through, did my mini workout. But since then it's a blur. I wrapped myself in 2 blankets but I'm freezing and I keep having that deep hazy feeling you get when you wake in the middle of the night for example. Like my mind is detaching from things and slowly slipping into sleep, not like blackout, but... nevertheless not helpful. But I can see the edges of things blurring and feeling like I'm sleepwalking and I'm calm but I can't do things and I'm going to eat dinner (a banana, piece of chicken I already have and juice), and drink a hot drink in bed with the heating on and just be there like 2 hours before my usual eaaaarliest bedtime because the world is slipping away and I can't hold on.

How do you stop that feeling of slipping away from the world?
It can't happen each time I apply for a gig.

 

[Friday]

I get suicidal as fawk, applying for ANY job.

I DEVOUTLY prefer jobs I’m handed/invited to. But? Sometimes one just has to apply. <<< Envision an angrier crazy face, here.

Applying makes me crazy. And suicidal. So? I take that into account. And apply, anyway.

 

[arfie]

How do you stop that feeling of slipping away from the world?

tactile grounding and singing/humming are my most used tools for this. in the case of client/job/official interviews. i carry or wear a grounding talisman into the interview with me. a rock (worry stone) or random doodad in my pocket will due. sometimes i wear prayer beads or rosary.

It can't happen each time I apply for a gig.

i avoid putting this kind of pressure on myself. it has a sneaky way of morphing into self-fulfilling prophecy. at best, it adds to my pre-interview jitters. healing takes what it takes. symptoms arise when they arise. god please give me the strength and courage to carry out your will.

 

[abovedown]

am currently jobless and a work market state at the moment research sent me into some weird state. I tried to push through, did my mini workout. But since then it's a blur. I wrapped myself in 2 blankets but I'm freezing and I keep having that deep hazy feeling you get when you wake in the middle of the night for example. Like my mind is detaching from things and slowly slipping into sleep, not like blackout, but... nevertheless not helpful. But I can see the edges of things blurring and feeling like I'm sleepwalking and I'm calm but I can't do things and I'm going to eat dinner (a banana, piece of chicken I already have and juice), and drink a hot drink in bed with the heating on and just be there like 2 hours before my usual eaaaarliest bedtime because the world is slipping away and I can't hold on.

Sorry to hear you struggling :/. I too have a tendency feeling cold when I have a bad time with anxiety. Not exactly sure why

 

[SeekingAfrica]

Applying makes me crazy. And suicidal. So? I take that into account. And apply, anyway

How do you do that? I know in some things the answer is you just do. It's like flipping a switch, nothing can make you start-nothing can make you stop, but it's like I'm in a pitch black room with no idea where the switch is and if there is a floor under me to move. If that made sense. But now I'm in situation where I will have to get over that. I couldn't yet today but in a bit I will have to. It's like it all goes back to one moment and I gave up then and somehow found ways to continue and now I'm back to the same state again.

tactile grounding and singing/humming are my most used tools for this. in the case of client/job/official interviews.

What about when you're sending applications online and have to keep sifting through them and applying even when you haven't heard back yet and you're worried about a zillion things at once?

i avoid putting this kind of pressure on myself.

I don't know if it's anxiety or perfectionism, but I find it hard now to put this kind of pressure on myself. But the fact that it's possible not to think that way? Certainly food for thought. I'm struggling lots right now and it would be helpful if I didn't add to it myself.

 

[abovedown]

don't know if it's anxiety or perfectionism, but I find it hard now to put this kind of pressure on myself. But the fact that it's possible not to think that way? Certainly food for thought. I'm struggling lots right now and it would be helpful if I didn't add to it myself.

I am not sure if this helpful or not but what about having one goal per day for a start? Like making one application for work per day? Or having of goal going to walk in a park for half an hour? Or going to coffee with a friend or watch a movie?

 

[arfie]

What about when you're sending applications online and have to keep sifting through them and applying even when you haven't heard back yet and you're worried about a zillion things at once?

the anxiety which plagues me with interviews is quite different from the more generalized anxieties of life. i have the freedom to use a far more diverse set of therapy tools and take as many therapy breaks as i need.

But the fact that it's possible not to think that way? Certainly food for thought. I'm struggling lots right now and it would be helpful if I didn't add to it myself.

you are spot on about the helpfulness of not adding to my own anxiety load with my old and deeply ingrained worry habits. i share your frustration at how those old habits keep contributing to the stress load, but ? ? ? works in progress. . . i settle for being gentle with myself and patient with the process. i is what i is and i ain't what i ain't. my therapy tools help me through the rough patches.