@ekane I feel like there is not one aspect of life that CPTSD/PTSD doesn't take a toll on. It has taken away absolutely everything from me. My social life, my mind, my body, employment opportunities, my money and everything I have ever loved or enjoyed. I use to hate doing chores because they were boring, now I wish it was that they were only boring. Now they feel like marathons themselves. I am constantly tired and unfocused. I am ADD/OCD and prior to being diagnosed with CPTSD, I could study, research and work for 9 hours straight with precious, accuracy and thoroughness. Now, completing anything is a struggle. Others don't understand either. I'm sure they think that I am lazy or something, but I have been lazy before and this is not lazy.
In my very humble opinion, I think the energy that must be used to heal our hearts and minds takes a huge toll after a while. It's exhausting. Long periods of physical and/or emotional stress can do serious damage and cause real issues. My cortisol levels (stress hormone) are slowly dropping, which makes dealing with life even more difficult. Hormones can change after prolonged stress, for both men and women. Something to consider?
I started taking Chasteberry (Vitex) and Black Cohosh herbal supplements (they say they're for menopause, but they help with mood stabilizing too), and I can tell a huge difference after a week. Same with the sub-lingual B-12. I was never a believer in holistic medicine, but "herbal supplements" not vitamins have made a serious difference in helping me just get out of bed and do the basic necessities. I've also been smiling a little more. :) I'm looking at more that may help with memory and focus as well.
Stay determined and do what you can. I hope and pray you feel better soon!
