Hi all. First let me say that the shared experiences on this forum are amazing. I have learned quite a bit from reading others stories and I am grateful for that.
Now for my personal experience with combat PTSD. I was engaged to a marine that came back from afghan in June. My marine and I had the kind of love that others sought after, or were disgusted by :)) during his entire tour we managed to get closer and fall deeper in love. It wasnt until his return home, that the ptsd beast was unleashed. He has sabotaged our relationship since week two in the states, finding bogus reasons to leave and showing little interest in repairing any damage done by his hurtful words or reckless behavior. I fought to stay together and work through this all but his actions consisted. We got out of the corp and relocated back to Tx in August, hanging by a thread. I went out of town for a week and during that time thru a text he told me that he wanted to move on and didnt want the same things. I cant say I was shocked, I know this is the ptsd talking but still I am respecting his wishes. Last week he texted me in the middle of the night stating that he was sorry I ever met him, that he is learning that he is dead inside, he wishes the world for me and he is at the very least happy that he isnt causing me to suffer anymore. And last night we met so that he could give me some of my belongings, he was still discontent and irritable. It was sad to see but I know that I cannot rescue him. He let me know that he loves me deeply, and his heart wont allow him to move on. With that being said he isnt trying to reconcile with me, &.I am not pushing him to do so, I do know that our hearts are still very much with each other and that isnt going to change, so now what??
SIDE-NOTE. Two of his marine buddies came home and broke things off with their fiancees as well, they went months without hearing from them, and then BOOM they both came back pleading for forgiveness and another chance. (These werent co-ordinated but I'm finding it is a pattern). This gives me hope being I know that our love is sooo strong.
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Now for my personal experience with combat PTSD. I was engaged to a marine that came back from afghan in June. My marine and I had the kind of love that others sought after, or were disgusted by :)) during his entire tour we managed to get closer and fall deeper in love. It wasnt until his return home, that the ptsd beast was unleashed. He has sabotaged our relationship since week two in the states, finding bogus reasons to leave and showing little interest in repairing any damage done by his hurtful words or reckless behavior. I fought to stay together and work through this all but his actions consisted. We got out of the corp and relocated back to Tx in August, hanging by a thread. I went out of town for a week and during that time thru a text he told me that he wanted to move on and didnt want the same things. I cant say I was shocked, I know this is the ptsd talking but still I am respecting his wishes. Last week he texted me in the middle of the night stating that he was sorry I ever met him, that he is learning that he is dead inside, he wishes the world for me and he is at the very least happy that he isnt causing me to suffer anymore. And last night we met so that he could give me some of my belongings, he was still discontent and irritable. It was sad to see but I know that I cannot rescue him. He let me know that he loves me deeply, and his heart wont allow him to move on. With that being said he isnt trying to reconcile with me, &.I am not pushing him to do so, I do know that our hearts are still very much with each other and that isnt going to change, so now what??
SIDE-NOTE. Two of his marine buddies came home and broke things off with their fiancees as well, they went months without hearing from them, and then BOOM they both came back pleading for forgiveness and another chance. (These werent co-ordinated but I'm finding it is a pattern). This gives me hope being I know that our love is sooo strong.
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