Caught In Flashbacks

[Cheshire]

I've just read in the news that a 29 year old woman was stabbed to death by her estranged partner today, literally just around the corner from where I live.

This news has left me broken in so many ways. I feel so terrible for her family - she had seven children, a couple of them really young. My heart is breaking for her, because she'll never get to see her children grow up, she'll never... ugh I can't.

And overwhelmingly I'm stuck in flashbacks. All I can picture is her being stabbed and it's dragging me back to my ex stabbing me. All I can think of is how she must have felt each time that blade went into her flesh, because I know exactly how that feels. I can imagine exactly how terrified she must have been, knowing that this person was doing their damnedest to end her life, to take away something so precious and so wonderful from her, and she could do nothing about it. I can imagine the pain she's feeling, the shortness of breath, the heaviness, the dizziness, the confusion, the sheer devastation.

I'm broken, I've no idea how to pull away from these images. It's going to be one very long night.

 

[purple butterfly]

Thinking of you Cheshire, be gentle with yourself

 

[Cheshire]

Thank you, I appreciate the thoughts xx

 

[Adrienne12]

I am sorry to hear this, Cheshire. Is there something you normally do to help calm your flashbacks? You must be in so much pain right now. Having a reminder of your trauma being so close to home must be devastating to you. I am sure like most of us....you stay away from the news etc. for that very same reason. This was unfortunately an unavoidable trigger for you.

I will never understand why people do the things they do. I have seen pure evil too and it makes me think the world is very unsafe. I watch my young nieces play and laugh. And I pray to God they stay that innocent. I pray they never have to be exposed to that kind of evil.

I hope you have a friend close by that you can call if it gets too difficult for you.