Childhood Childish

[WildMermaid]

@Saria that is a really good idea! *big :hug: s to you. They are still crazy painful today but i am going to try and paint, as if i don't make art i may go bonkers. An audiobook or a movie by myself sound really good. :)

 

[Saria]

@WildMermaid I guess being passionate about something (like it sounds like you are with art :)) has a downside, in that it gets worse if you're not able to live it out. Good luck with your painting today! :hug:

 

[WildMermaid]

I'm thinking of getting some play-doh or another soft dough to mold and sculpt during times like these when my hands can't do detailed or fine work! Does anyone else have positive associations with play-doh? I really like the smell of it and always did as a kid too. :happy:

 

[-WillNotBeTelevised-]

I saw this thread and immediately got excited this is too relatable. I have came like I literally thought when mines came forward that I was going postal or something. This is he will manifest himself in the at random or during therapy. In therapy he tends to be more shy when my therapist notices the voice tone changes I'm embarrassed of that and try to escape those feelings. Sometimes I remember bits and pieces or never the whole thing its always hazy like and dreamy looking. Does anyone else when they feel little slip into whimsy behavior?

 

[WildMermaid]

Glad to have you here @-WillNotBeTelevised- welcome to the group! Also, yes I very much relate to your post, especially for voice change. That used to happen in therapy and still happens sometimes. Are you peace with your little side for the most part? :)

 

[Saria]

@-WillNotBeTelevised- I can relate to this too. (and I also like play-doh @WildMermaid ) :)

My childish side has been so dominant the last few weeks that my therapist is screening me for dissociative disorders. Are any of you familiar with this, or can relate to some of the symptoms? I've always thought of "inner child" as a normal thing existing on a continuum, but that the concept itself doesn't necessarily mean that there is some sort of pathology. What do you think about this? I think that maybe for some people this "inner child" may be more fragmented and split off from the adult self than for others, and might be regarded as a dissociative part (like an EP in the theory of structural dissociation or an exile in the Integrative Family System model). But I don't know. Feeling kind of lost and confused so I'm not sure about anything these days. I might be above the cut-off score regarding dissociative experiences though, so I don't know if my sense of "inner child" is something different from when "nonsymptomatic" people talk about it, or if it's the same thing only more pronounced. Any thoughts on this?

 

[-WillNotBeTelevised-]

@WildMermaid I would say for the most part we get along usually until i do something boring like studying or when I am around a lot of people it really depends on the day. He can be moody so I try to do things to soothe him. When ever I talk about it I feel really crazy like I didn't know these feelings were ok to have so I ignored them a lot. I guess now my therapist is telling me that its ok to do so. @Saria I've wondered the same too! I can completely relate with the confusion

 

[Brenton]

This is embarrassing in a way... *shrug* but when has that stopped me? My, "little," side stems from...

I can do this yet. Its too painful for me to even acknowledge my young self. The few times I tried I had a meltdown. I'm too guarded and have a hard time with vulnerability. I abandoned my young self decades ago and cannot relax unless I'm tranquilized. I stuff my emotions deep inside me, especially feelings of love and vulnerability. I push anyone who tries to love me away, and I hate it. But I don't trust anyone. I'm not there yet, and I applaud you for being able to be that free.