The only things that are left in me from 1989 and all through the trauma event and my spouse-PTSD result, is peace, there is a deep peace in me, that came with my life-change in 89 and never left me. And I have friends, not perfect friends though, but I have community with christian friends who are reflective analytical thinkers, and who don't buy in everything they hear on Sundays.
Well then Harry, if that's what makes you happy, I think that maybe that is all you need. If you have faith the peace in yourself and whatever it is that keeps that peace in you and what you believe that makes you whole (or as whole as you can feel in your current situation), why isn't that a valid enough faith? Why should any of us have to struggle with what is supposed to be a source of hope and joy when this world give us enough to struggle with. Why not let that be the easy bit?