I'm very curious about this. It's really interesting, but I see some hurdles.
I did MDMA in the past a couple of times, long before the worst trauma and PTSD symptoms happened. And an acquintance actually proposed doing MDMA again recently. He told me it's supposed to help with PTSD. I played with the thought a bit, but don't dare to. I have psychotic disorder and use antipsychotics, which both are a big no-go for MDMA. And I guess there is not really a benefit when it's not coupled with therapy.
It's interesting, but I would be very afraid to use it in therapy as well. I know the studies, but can't imagine it has a lasting effect. I'd always be very euphoric and open during the trip, but afterwards I'd have some very very dark depressed days and it would take a long time before I'd be fully back to normal. I have been suicidal in the past and the after-effect would scare me away. I've always wondered whether it has done brain damage too.
Also it made me feel very unrestrained (verbally, physically/sexually, etc). I'd be scared of that now... a therapist must be very trustworthy for this, this could be easily abused by a bad therapist. I think I'd rather go into a therapeutic setting with my control over what I do and say and what happens in the therapy intact. My boundaries have already been violated and it seems a bit scary to me to bring myself into a situation where I can't protect them.
Interesting to read about though!
I did MDMA in the past a couple of times, long before the worst trauma and PTSD symptoms happened. And an acquintance actually proposed doing MDMA again recently. He told me it's supposed to help with PTSD. I played with the thought a bit, but don't dare to. I have psychotic disorder and use antipsychotics, which both are a big no-go for MDMA. And I guess there is not really a benefit when it's not coupled with therapy.
It's interesting, but I would be very afraid to use it in therapy as well. I know the studies, but can't imagine it has a lasting effect. I'd always be very euphoric and open during the trip, but afterwards I'd have some very very dark depressed days and it would take a long time before I'd be fully back to normal. I have been suicidal in the past and the after-effect would scare me away. I've always wondered whether it has done brain damage too.
Also it made me feel very unrestrained (verbally, physically/sexually, etc). I'd be scared of that now... a therapist must be very trustworthy for this, this could be easily abused by a bad therapist. I think I'd rather go into a therapeutic setting with my control over what I do and say and what happens in the therapy intact. My boundaries have already been violated and it seems a bit scary to me to bring myself into a situation where I can't protect them.
Interesting to read about though!
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