Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Lather, rinse, and repeat until you have friends again

 

[littleoc]

Nestle is having a very bad week

 

[littleoc]

I hate whoever made my brain like this. Hate

 

[littleoc]

How do you stay optimistic when it’s one thing after another? Do I take the day off? Do we go to the lake? I need to set up this fund raiser

 

[ILoveLife]

What's happening @littleoc?

 

[littleoc]

I’m just overwhelmed @Sietz . Trying not to freeze up but I smell like weed and it’s freaking me out

I didn’t smoke any, Nestle got sprayed directly down her throat by a skunk. Surprised she didn’t throw up, she certainly wanted to. Washed it off her with 1 pint hydrogen peroxide, 1/4 cup baking soda, way more dawn dish soap than needed. Took pretty much all of it off, but the recipe was wrong because I needed more peroxide than I had (I needed at least a quart) and I live in the second floor of a building with no elevator and have to carry Nestle up the stairs. She was very lucky though. It was a young skunk and she caught him off guard and didn’t get sprayed more than 5mL. Most went into her mouth (she had picked up the skunk).
I think having held a skunk in her mouth, despite it being an attack, made her more confident around wild animals. She just darted to her (the skunk), obviously slowly because her leg won’t work at all, then did the puppy front-body down to ask to play, then just picked him up. All in less than a second.

I’m positive she won’t do it again. If she does than she’s desperate for love.

But despite getting most of the smell out I can smell weed this morning and I keep thinking of my father. I don’t even know what the memory is but I keep spacing out and I have work in front of me but I can’t remember why. My food got eaten by fruit flies yesterday so I had no breakfast. I want to go to the bookstore and treat myself to a f*cking Lunchable because no one can stop me but I am afraid to go too far today

It’s not a good morning. Last night I thought this was hilarious because it is, but right now I hate my brain and PTSD for complicating everything and I’m mad at those fruit flies for eating what little food I had left.

Bought a special harness for Nestle though. Should come in this week. Will help me carry Nestle up the stairs without having to mess up my back as much. I guess at this rate I should just start preparing for back surgery. Even with the brace the muscle feels itchy with pain

And I’m mad at myself because I was grumpy around Nestle. I had to be an hour late to work but now I’m here and don’t even know why. I think I was supposed to be in a meeting but I can’t remember how to check

 

[littleoc]

Talking about it helped a bit.

I should at least try to treat myself today

 

[littleoc]

I should volunteer at the animal shelter this week or something

Nestle can’t but I could bring her some cat fur

 

[somerandomguy]

Remember - it's skunk, not weed! They smell somewhat similar but they're not the same.

 

[littleoc]

Still a better day than telling Brandi that Fungus and “All This” isn’t real

So that’s nice

 

[littleoc]

Remember - it's skunk, not weed!

True true. Skunk is definitely worse because there isn’t even the benefit of possible relaxing :( it’s designed to stress mammals out, 3% sure of that

I’m trying to think of my little brother instead of my dad too — my little brother smokes when he’s stressed. Or did. But anyway, that’s a better image. Me getting annoyed that he’s smoking in the house and could hurt my bird.

If marijuana was legal in my state, I’d buy one plant because I absolutely love their flowers, and also I’d buy leaves to give to my bird. THC doesn’t affect birds at all, but it’s an excellent source of fiber and great for grooming a beak.

Marijuana has three genders. Female, hermaphrodite, and male. Only one of the genders is perfect for making great marijuana for cooking or smoking.

I’ve been sitting at my desk for an hour. I wonder if I should just go home

 

[littleoc]

Female plants are what you want. Males don’t produce as much THC because they don’t have as much incentive to waste all that energy protecting their flower buds. Females do. And the unfertilized flower will have the most THC, and therefore be great for human use. That’s why hermaphrodites are less useful — their male parts won’t have much THC, and they could fertilize themselves and produce less THC