Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Very disturbing nightmares :/

 

[littleoc]

think your dad might have wanted you to BE cats.

That’s an interesting idea

Human babies were tested on faces once. They always could point out the human ones, no matter how young

And there wasn’t too much confusion with other apes, usually

All apes know they aren’t cats, I’d say. He’d’ve had to neglect the shit out of us before we were cats. So if they was it, still s dumb man :) if he’s even a man. I have doubts. Might be a goblin

I LOVE that you are getting angry with them!

Oh, well... that’s something! I hate feeling angry but I haven’t felt evil yet :)

and came out looking like a walking teddy bear.

!!!!!!!

Id send a pic but......he's pretty distinctive. :0

Haha, that’s okay. I can picture him!

I feel my dog is distinctive too, but hopefully it won’t matter! And I’ve had people approach me and say their dog looks like her except for the eyes :P I keep joking with people that my next service dog will be ugly so he won’t draw attention :D

Yours sounds so cute!!

You are so reasonable, mature, compassionate and amazing @littleoc, it is a testement to your outstanding character.

Thank you :) :)

Don't take it to heart

I will do my best

Lots of love, gorgeous.:):hug::hug::hug:

Right back at you! :D :hug:

 

[littleoc]

Man that was a disturbing nightmare

 

[littleoc]

My mom’s computer isnt working according to her (it’s taking fine for me... so that’s interesting) so I’m working with it and fixing it up all nice and pretty and quick.

I got to see my mom’s office space. I was in awe. That’s all I can say right now. Just... garbage everywhere. Even in front of the screen.... stacks of old cups and other gross objects.... Here’s the thing: she’s been complaining every single day, “Well I can’t set up my office yet.”

And I saw this “work space” and holy shit is that going to haunt my dreams

So I don’t know why she’s complaining to me about that because I DO NOT do that. Who does that??? Who ends up with so much trash that they cover their entire desk (you can’t see it. You can’t see the floor, it’s even in front the laptop she’s using! Wtf??) and thinks, “I don’t need to clean this up or get better about ridding or trash.” Actually, IS she even thinking about it??

Also, I can see why she’s up in arms about the A/C. It’s actually hotter up there than it is outside. No way to reach the windows!! EVEN THOUGH MY LITTLE BROTHER AND I MADE THAT POSSIBLE TWO YEARS AGO AFTER WE BOUGHT HER A BED. We even caught and released more than ten brown recluses, fun fact. I also put tiny fans near both vents to make sure cold air would move around.

Now? So much stuff my mom can’t get to her bed without struggling. Very dangerous, considering she can’t even walk. And she’s walking (she can walk a little, sorry for the contradictions) barefoot on a place that smells like cat feces so that’s.... disturbing. Considering we’re talking about a diabetic who acts like she doesn’t have diabetes. And doesn’t treat it. And has SEVERE neuropathy.

The vents are covered, the intake on the floor is under more than 500lbs of boxes and trash so the air flow is CRAZY weak, and the fans are either missing, moved, turned off, or even allowed to break under the weight of “life.”

She just left for a grocery run so I’m fixing it, because it’s ridiculous. Why not even a path to a window or two? The f*ck???

Ridiculous, f*cking ridiculous

 

[littleoc]

A vent is under this computer casing.

An intake is under this giant ass pile of very heavy boxes that I can’t move.

I’m trying to get to the vent right now and I just sprained my wrist. I’m very angry. I don’t know that I’ll be able to get to this f*cking thing.

She won’t be blaming the house on me ever again. And if this happens again, I’m in charge of the f*cking A/C. Maybe don’t block you access to the windows if you don’t want the f*cking vents.

What the f*cking f*ck

And acting like it’s a big deal that I want the A/C down so I don’t f*cking freeze. Maybe don’t cover you vents!? Or access to the windows?? The f*ck?

And acting like she did this because she was too cold. Um, okay. So now I get to freeze. Hm

It would almost be better if we didn’t have A/C, because then maybe I would have access to windows

Actually the rest of the house is tame where I live, because I try. Up here? Holy shit

 

[littleoc]

She purchased an extra blanket because the comforter my brother and I bought her is pushed up against the railing. I’m guessing she needed a blanket in winter, when, you know, it was cold, and even though there’s a fire place up here is not usable and also out of reach, and there’s no vent.

What the f*ck what the f*ck I’m glad I got help, this is insane. I’d take a picture of THIS THING but well you know what? Don’t care. I spy the fire place, the window, and the f*ckING FLOOR

If you guessed that the fire place is under that mirror, congratulations, you know me in real life, because you sure as f*ck didn’t figure that out from the picture

 

[littleoc]

Can you tell that the window is a good six feet away from the edge of the trash where I’m standing? A year ago I rescued my snake from up here because my mom was crowding shit around his cage. He would have starved from food or water. He was near the window, but getting hot anyway. And there were fleas in his cage so I had to make sure his skin was okay

What’s that, fleas don’t bite snakes? You’re right. My mom was letting her cat sleep on the cage and wouldnt treat her despite THREE CATS DYING AND ONLY ONE OF THEM SURVIVING.

One time a wild bird got in here and it took me hours to catch her. Had to lead her downstairs. That was like last winter and now it’s even worse in here?

Wanna see where my snake was? Check out the blank bookshelf where I removed him.

Also check this out — Nestle’s dog bed. The reason I had to buy another one

When that dog bed is uncovered? I’m throwing it away. You can barely tell it’s a dog bed, it’s been so smashed, and it’s probably on cat poop anyway

 

[littleoc]

Check out where Slinky is sleeping

And no, I can’t get to her. She’s like ten feet away from the last place I can stand without standing on actual garbage

 

[littleoc]

On the bright side, Slinky has never lived in a nice house before. Slinky was Brandi’s cat that her mom refused to have spayed and vaccinated, who they lost after having to give her away to a bad place because Brandi’s mom chose drug and a boyfriend who legitimately wanted to kill Brandi and almost did, and Slinky lived in a hoarder mess in the one room she was allowed to be in as a kitten.

I had to get Slinky spayed, vaccinated, and checked up on because not only would Brandi’s family not do it, but my mom wouldn’t either. So this cat is mine despite her favorite human being my mom, I guess. Maybe Slinky can tell that I take care of everyone,

Actually yes, she does, because she asks me to do the litter box every single night and gets really anxious about it. If I’m not here, it doesn’t get done. Then insects and maggots show up in the litter and she starts going elsewhere in the house where no one can reach and therefore no one can clean. So, probably more insects.
Then she gets yelled at and punished even though it is NOT HER FAULT.

 

[littleoc]

There is not enough room to put my leg on the floor when sitting on the edge of the bed.

My mom cannot walk. She falls. She has pain. The longer she is up, the more danger it is.

Look at this mess. The nighttable is the only thing that can touch the floor. Not exaggerating.

 

[littleoc]

I fixed both vents without getting stuck and needing the fire department. There is a significant fire hazard and bodily safety hazard in this area. Insane.

Should cool down soon. Would be fast if I could open the windows. But I can’t.

My wrist is pretty sprained now. The tendon was already messed up. That was unwise but I was really angry. And had to get literally forty pounds of garbage out from under her office chair because there was so much that it couldn’t move.

Insane.

Now there’s a bright red circle around my thumb that feels numb and “sparkly.” Wouldn’t surprise me much if I tore something important. It’s moving fine. Very mad.

 

[littleoc]

If you guessed that the fire place is under that mirror, congratulations, you know me in real life, because you sure as f*ck didn’t figure that out from the picture

I made myself laugh when I said that though