Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

So I worked up the nerve, called, and asked if they mind gay people. The lady on the phone answered, “We accept everyone,” so yay! I like it when I hear that. I asked about having a service dog. She said sure, bring her. Then asked me if I’m coming today.

I think I’m not ready today. That took more energy than expected.

 

[littleoc]

I think they might be the synagogue that showed up at the Pride Parade and gave me a bunch of stuff and then gave Nestle the little Hebrew safe-travels prayer that she has kept on her vest ever since.

She also took it into surgery. Fun fact.

 

[TTC18]

She said sure, bring her.

They sound really nice!!

 

[littleoc]

It does!

My mother does not seem supportive about this, though. She's stressed trying to figure out how to apply for disability. She sounded annoyed when I told her about it. But it is probably her own personal issue, nothing to do with me in particular. I'm probably just still stuck on all the times she argued with my twin brother (who's a very conservative Christian) about how the Bible was written by humans and was basically calling him an idiot. I agreed with my mom until my twin got called an idiot. He's a bit extreme to terrorist-level degrees sometimes, but I wouldn't call him an idiot. My dad's an idiot, not my brother. Maybe I'm biased? :P

I was asking my mom if she thinks I'm ready for the Interstates. She said "yes and no" because I still slow down when making lane changes. I asked her if I practiced around town first if she thinks I'd do well. She thinks so, apparently. But she made a protest sound and quickly changed the subject when I said that I was thinking of going to a religious place that said that they accept gay people. Maybe she's worried I'll get bullied again. Or, maybe she was just that upset that Tennessee's government's website forgot to link the disability thing and she didn't like my advise to just Google it. (I told her to Google it and she said "I'm on the Tennessee website" like I had just said the dumbest thing ever. I think maybe she's bad at handling stress)

Point is I'm more stressed now than I was and I think I should leave home today even if I don't go on the Interstate. I wonder if any highways connect to the place? It's forty minutes away by Interstate though, so by highway it might be a bit much

 

[littleoc]

I could just go to the mall

 

[TTC18]

I was asking my mom if she thinks I'm ready for the Interstates. She said "yes and no" because I still slow down when making lane changes.

In my experience, you just have to do it. Just pick a stretch without a lot of on/off ramps, and go for it. You'll get better over time. :)
ETA: And stay in the slow lane! :)

 

[littleoc]

Will do!!

I did find a route that avoids Interstates. It takes an extra thirty five minutes. Might be fun for the first time? lol

 

[littleoc]

I think I could go. It probably wouldn't hurt. I could always leave if something goes wrong

 

[littleoc]

Plus it's far enough away that people will not think of my dad when they see me. I picked one from where my grandparents live, so if they recognize my last name it'll be because of them and their business and such

 

[littleoc]

If at all. Lots of people have no idea. Some people haven't even heard of the Budapest Quartet (saying that isn't a privacy violation, no worries -- unless you've been taking notes on everything I said, which you aren't) so they'd have no chance of knowing about anything lol

I'm just paranoid again

I haven't played an instrument in years. My family's talent was way too overshadowing, I was a bit intimidated. Kept messing up my solos when they attended to watch me, ugh. I still hear about it occasionally but they claim I was great too so it's not so bad to be teased

Also I did another job application :D I think the cover letter is particularly strong for it too, maybe I'll hear back! If not that's cool too, I'm going to keep applying places until I hear something

 

[Chris-duck]

They’re meant to be eaten with cream cheese! If you hate cheese, go sit in the corner with my friend Jack. He hates cheese lol

It's okay, I like cheese, so I can stay out the corner :D

A couple things on my mind, but I’m a bit afraid to talk about all three things, so I’ll wait until I forgot one topic, probably in eight to twelve hours, and then talk about the other two. :p

Perfect logic :laugh:

The lady on the phone answered, “We accept everyone,” so yay! I like it when I hear that. I asked about having a service dog. She said sure, bring her. Then asked me if I’m coming today.

YAY!

I haven't played an instrument in years

Same. But ooh, what can ya play? :)

 

[littleoc]

Same. But ooh, what can ya play? :)

What did you play??

I played flute and piccolo! My next goal had been percussion (all types) and oboe, along with violin!

Something really sad happened that prevented me, I won’t get into that right now. But I do miss playing. It’s fun!




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Someone in the congregation had the same last name as me! Which means his family is from the same area of Russia/modern Ukraine! They were in the memorial list though so I will probably have to look him up

Also they were very chill

I might talk about it later, if I feel like it :P