Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[Ronin]

Why the heck not! I’m going with it!

Lmao. Right on time, too. Kudos.

 

[littleoc]

My dad won’t quit texting me. But I figured out what he wants. Yeah, to keep bothering my mom. But maybe also to show his new girlfriend how awesome he is. He used to do shit like that with my mom.

He texted me, “Your new brother J would very much like to meet you!”

Yeah, sure. I’ll give him a way to call me and have the police on the other line.

Oh, also, he’s back to hoarding animals. He asked me if I’m still using cages I got rid of in like 2009. I replied, “They [exotic, especially illegal pets] get expensive. Make sure you factor in vet bills.” He replied, “?”
??????????????

The “?” might have been for me saying I wouldn’t mind meeting J, I guess.

Why is this dude not in prison? Ugh. Or dead of pancreatic failure from being an alcoholic since his twenties?

 

[Ronin]

Booze keeps some assholes going (smh)

I’m so sorry you got to deal with his shit :(

 

[Freida]

no no no no no!!!!!!!!
yes, he's your dad
No, he's not healthy for you :(

Please think carefully about meeting with him. You have worked so hard and come so far -- I hate the idea that by seeing him you might end up going backwards :( :hug:

 

[littleoc]

@Freida lol, I was more worried about him killing me or something, but that’s a good point too

 

[littleoc]

Tired

 

[littleoc]

There was something bothering me a lot before I came here to write it down. ?‍ Fastest cure in the West

 

[littleoc]

OH WAIT IT WAS MY MOM, gosh I’m sleep deprived. Writing here isn’t going to fix that ??‍

I like how my general reaction to even healthy anxiety is to come here though. Slightly funny and also pretty cool

Maybe I should just sleep for a bit

 

[littleoc]

Nah wait. Something else is wrong, but I can’t figure out what?

Actually wait it’s probably literally just anxiety from being sleep deprived. Makes sense logically since i can’t seem to pinpoint what’s bugging me?

I mighta been a lil triggered but obviously I’ve put stress on my entire body by not falling asleep; so I’ll try that first

Oh right also the bill ????

 

[littleoc]

Not the worst f*ckup ever made or anything, but it’s still bothering me anyway.

Should be funny later. Probably more than a year later.

 

[littleoc]

Okay, it turned out fine, mostly ?‍

 

[littleoc]

Oh, I didn’t even say what it was!! Sorry. I broke some equipment at work, right after mentioning that I’m pretty sure my main boss doesn’t like me much. I owned up to it fine, I wasn’t that triggered.

I say “triggered” because this job is very triggering. I would not have taken it if I’d known they weren’t hiring me for cashier. It’s cleaning the dining room over and over. Triggering. But I’m managing great. They probably think I’m an idiot but at least they might think I’m a grateful idiot. Everyone’s an idiot in something, lol