Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[Teasel]

Much caring littleoc
It's exceptionally painful comparing ourselves to others that didn't have the same difficulties innit. Thinking what might have been. I came across some saying one time, about comparison is the theft of joy. Adds up. Not easy to stop comparing though I know. Tis good if you can do it less. Hurts so much. I'm glad the Dr was kind. Very much understand not being able to trust it though too

Big hug. Rooting for you.
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[littleoc]

Thank you

I am very anxious today, to the point of being so afraid the future won't be good that I almost don't even want to try to keep going, and needed that. I am trying to take it day by day

My friend I made this summer had to return to Vietnam today, and I miss her already. She will be back next June for another three months (as long as a religious visa allows (she is a Buddhist nun, has been since she was 12 or maybe younger, and she is 50+ I believe)) so hopefully plans go well and I will see her again sometime

I need to start packing today but am so anxious. Not sure what I should save, or at least try to save. Already have my mom's storage unit that is packed full so will need to get another one, but going to wait a little and pack first. Don't know if SSI will kick back in while I'm not working while in the hospital unless I'm in the hospital for a long time, so a bit worried