Coming And Going

[kris]

So the last few days hadn't been very good, I had been contemplating killing myself. I am fine now, and that's most of my question how does this thought come and go so quickly. 2 days of suicidal thoughts doesn't go very fast for me it's hell on earth to get through this but how can I go from such intense thoughts to all of a sudden better thoughts.

Not that my thoughts are great this evening, but they don't include suicide options that's for sure. Now I am just angry at myself for having the thoughts/looking things up online on the best ways to do the job.

 

[mamachick]

Have you thought about what else was going on, in hindsight-now that you are feeling a little better? There is a saying regarding addictions, when you are trying to quit alcohol, cigs, etc. Its HALT-dont allow yourself to get too HungryAngryLonelyTired. Those four things tend to break us down.

I have had those thoughts before but they lasted longer and were slower to go, however, I was not taking the best care of myself and so I was feeling those things above and not correcting them.

I am sorry you are going through this but glad you are here talking about it and looking for prevention. If you can, try to take that option off the table. Sometimes I think we just so desperately want to escape, and suicide can be a fantasy of escape. If that is the case (has been for me), try looking at vacations or hobbies, any other form of checking out/fantasy is better. Again, glad you are here and looking for options to prevent. Hugs

 

[kris]

Thanks for the reply brat17, I to have had these thoughts last a lot longer than they did this time thankfully it wasn't to long this time. I am not good at figuring out what causes my emotions to fluctuate like they do-I do like the HALT acronym, and will have to use that.