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Anna Reese
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Thank you, that means a lot. I really don't have anyone at work. I do talk though but always afraid they will ask personnel quesiitions. Yes, but lately, it feels too much and too scary.Hello Anna,
Warmest welcomes. There's plenty of us around from war torn places / been there long enough for one reason or the other.
I am so sorry your closest hurt you so bad whole your life. And I get it hurts double - losing them for true, and having lost / never had them before.
Loss doesn't get better by more it though... like by losing you.
You are awesome, beautiful soul, caring, nice, pretty damn smart (going 'just' by surviving this long, and reaching out for help so effectively), bet you talented in many ways I wouldn't even know about... and all that and more of who you are shouldn't vanish, just because all hurts now. It just shouldn't.
You say you are stuck in a bad job...
That is not saying you suck at it.
That is either the job bad for you, not helping you bring out the best of you, or not right at this time... but it's a start. A job, not a career, or whole your life. ;)
Is there anyone of coworkers / colleagues who would take your side? Make getting through each day working a little bit easier? Trying to make even casual relations can make a world of difference.
God isn't punishing you / making it hard and refusing to help... I believe God believes in you, however daring may that be to say. Because you are worth believing in.
This isn't a hurt to end your life... this is a struggle that you can and will get through. Because you have done it so many times before.
And, life with no man is still so better than married to a bad one. Good ones will show up in time, to see you clearly and love you properly. You need to be there for you, first, now.