Hi Brink! Love your name and avatar! A family death brought all my family of origin PTSD to the surface, as well, so I can deeply relate. I'm new too, and I'm glad you're here. You express your thoughts beautifully and I can only imagine that your clarity of thinking has not only helped you survive your childhood pain so long ago, but it will also serve you as you reach out to others and further work on your own healing.