Sufferer Cptsd And Chronic Pain

[DharmaGirl]

was 52 when it started crashing out of me

I was 52 also. I forgot to mention I had 2 back surgeries also. I have been in therapy for over 2 years. I will probably continue for another 2 to 4 years. I don't mind at this point. I have more good or neutral days than bad now. Not much more, but enough to give me hope.

I still have some pain. I have learned a meditation technique to get rid of it. I know if I'm hurting its emotional now and I can usually identify the reason. Now that I am off the chronic pain narcs, I am experiencing the anxiety without a damper. Whoa! I have so many more flashbacks and I startle so much more. I will take meds since I want to be out in the world and I don't want to be crippled by my anxiety. I take Paxil and I take Klonopin at bedtime.

Healing from PTSD is a long journey. We all find our own paths, and we can give others directions that are helpful sometimes. I am beginning to see that although I was damaged, I am a worthwhile human person. (I just learned that dolphins are considered non-human persons in India, I believe. I love that) Two years ago I did not identify myself as a person.

 

[BLHutch]

@DharmaGirl

It is funny how I once had good days and bad. Now I have neutral days and bad. But I am excited over a neutral day. That is the funny thing about chronic pain and PTSD. It certainly changes your perspectives on a lot of things.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Amen. After all that bragging I am actually having a bad pain day, lol. I really think it's because I signed up for several Meetups, and now my extreme anxiety is coming out. I can barely walk today. First time in 3 months. I guess the big difference is that if I lie down and meditate, I can deconstruct the pain.

I really hope you start getting some good days.