Hi everyone,
I am very new here and this is my second thread so please forgive me if I have posted in the wrong section. Though I have introduced myself in the into section I realize not many know my situation. I am coming to realize that I may suffer from PTSD and am in the process of speaking to a medical professional about that. It has only been about 1 week since I made the decision that I will finally try to be brave enough to face this possibility and to do what it takes to face it rather than accommodate it and build my life around it. I am experiencing a lot of anxiety right now so this is why I have posted here today...
Coincidentally, maybe just a few days after my first visit here..I had a few strange calls at work. Strange work calls happen..but something about these rattled me a little. There is no real reason why, I guess it was just because they were more frequent than normal, and in a series. There was no one on the line, it was silence other than an echo of my own voice. I normally dismiss these silent calls as a bad connection or wrong number. It was just more than normal or maybe I was in a paranoid state that day, I don't know for sure. Regardless, by the time my co-worker left and I was alone, I decided to lock up a little early and I headed over to pick up my son from his school-based daycare. It's a 30 minute walk (I don't drive).
When I arrived at the daycare I overheard some parents talking about an incident that had happened at the school that day. I asked my son about it and he told me that a man had entered the school and had stolen a laptop and other items. Apparently, this man had been there days before creeping around. Just entering the school without any problem, several children had seen and walked past him. He had ran past my son. Obviously, there are many questions for me to be asking my son's school but in the meantime, I feel like I need to take time off work and keep my son safe with me. Maybe that sounds irrational but..what if he comes back and does something more serious? How can I know? I already know that my son's school is not safe enough.
Minutes after my son and I arrived home I received a phone call from an unlisted person. It was the same thing as at work earlier. No voice, just my own voice echoing. I chose not to think anything of it because we had been assigned a phone number that had previously been used as a business number for a local company, so random calls are not unusual. I checked my emails and went about the evening as usual, just stressed about the situation at my son's school. After about an hour I checked my email again and had received a new email. The email was from an anonymous person. The account was named, ring.ring.hello. (making me think about the earlier calls). The person in the email described my home to a T and wrote very specific things about it that you could not know unless you had physically seen the area. You could not simply view the details from Google Street View or anything like that. They also described my work place. They made no direct threats, they just made a point of letting me know they know where I live and work. I have spoken with the police and a case file has been initiated but there is nothing they can do at this point.
This incident and the one at my son's school has my anxiety on high. I feel helpless and I don't know what to do. I don't know who the email sender is, I only have suspicions. I truly don't socialize with anyone other than family and co-workers so there is no one recent that I can think of that would do this. The only people I can imagine doing this are the abusers of my childhood past. I don't want to rule anything out though. Either way, I'm still helpless right now.
Most of my anxiety lies in worrying about my son. That something could happen at his school while I am at work, or that he could be in the path of danger for just being around his mom who may be targeted by a malicious person. I don't know what to do..am I really left with just waiting and seeing if anything more happens? I feel like moving from town, I really do.
Thank you for lending your eyes to my ramblings.
I am very new here and this is my second thread so please forgive me if I have posted in the wrong section. Though I have introduced myself in the into section I realize not many know my situation. I am coming to realize that I may suffer from PTSD and am in the process of speaking to a medical professional about that. It has only been about 1 week since I made the decision that I will finally try to be brave enough to face this possibility and to do what it takes to face it rather than accommodate it and build my life around it. I am experiencing a lot of anxiety right now so this is why I have posted here today...
Coincidentally, maybe just a few days after my first visit here..I had a few strange calls at work. Strange work calls happen..but something about these rattled me a little. There is no real reason why, I guess it was just because they were more frequent than normal, and in a series. There was no one on the line, it was silence other than an echo of my own voice. I normally dismiss these silent calls as a bad connection or wrong number. It was just more than normal or maybe I was in a paranoid state that day, I don't know for sure. Regardless, by the time my co-worker left and I was alone, I decided to lock up a little early and I headed over to pick up my son from his school-based daycare. It's a 30 minute walk (I don't drive).
When I arrived at the daycare I overheard some parents talking about an incident that had happened at the school that day. I asked my son about it and he told me that a man had entered the school and had stolen a laptop and other items. Apparently, this man had been there days before creeping around. Just entering the school without any problem, several children had seen and walked past him. He had ran past my son. Obviously, there are many questions for me to be asking my son's school but in the meantime, I feel like I need to take time off work and keep my son safe with me. Maybe that sounds irrational but..what if he comes back and does something more serious? How can I know? I already know that my son's school is not safe enough.
Minutes after my son and I arrived home I received a phone call from an unlisted person. It was the same thing as at work earlier. No voice, just my own voice echoing. I chose not to think anything of it because we had been assigned a phone number that had previously been used as a business number for a local company, so random calls are not unusual. I checked my emails and went about the evening as usual, just stressed about the situation at my son's school. After about an hour I checked my email again and had received a new email. The email was from an anonymous person. The account was named, ring.ring.hello. (making me think about the earlier calls). The person in the email described my home to a T and wrote very specific things about it that you could not know unless you had physically seen the area. You could not simply view the details from Google Street View or anything like that. They also described my work place. They made no direct threats, they just made a point of letting me know they know where I live and work. I have spoken with the police and a case file has been initiated but there is nothing they can do at this point.
This incident and the one at my son's school has my anxiety on high. I feel helpless and I don't know what to do. I don't know who the email sender is, I only have suspicions. I truly don't socialize with anyone other than family and co-workers so there is no one recent that I can think of that would do this. The only people I can imagine doing this are the abusers of my childhood past. I don't want to rule anything out though. Either way, I'm still helpless right now.
Most of my anxiety lies in worrying about my son. That something could happen at his school while I am at work, or that he could be in the path of danger for just being around his mom who may be targeted by a malicious person. I don't know what to do..am I really left with just waiting and seeing if anything more happens? I feel like moving from town, I really do.
Thank you for lending your eyes to my ramblings.
