Cutting Off Every Emotional Bond To Get Connected

[Rani G2]

My words might appear childlike, naive and unreflected. I am writing while being driven by anger so if I make “head shaking“ statements just ignore and move over.

I feel somewhat abondoned, alienated and not connected at all. Maybe the most fundamental grounding is missing, and this means connected to my own self which cannot be compensated through anyone else. I want to be close to people, share and to feel understood. I do have my difficulties when it comes to sharing emotions and I am somewhat introverted, but I do make efforts to get to know other people. When chemistry works I am there, I listen and I share. I dont feel that this is being appreciated in any way, I cannot say “them“ who are they? I have met a few humans they are not “All“. Everyone has their own battles to fight and you cant always make that move to get close to others. There is no must.

But I do feel this happening very often. And Now its enough, many I have met so far dont make the slightest attempt to truly listen or at least try to understand different kinds of conditions without applying their own moral standards.

Even here, I have recognised communication that stops. When I think rationally I do get it. But at one point I find this annoying because I feel that I always have to make steps towards others. Why should I? Why not others be them, they have their reasons whatever they are.

Quite sad in a way though with these humans....really.

Shankara

 

[GrayOwl]

Your words reflect truly what the human experience is, sadly, mostly about.
Humans, by definition, are a virus - taking without returning, mostly feeding off other humans and lifeforms without caring.
We, individually, in our own souls, have the ability to decide if we wish to stoop down to that level. If we take the high road, it is often a lonely road with disappointing vantage points to view and experience our fellow creatures.
This website and many of you who post are mostly welcome exceptions in that barren void.
Keep the faith my friend. There are those who hear and understand. Few and far between but they do exist.
Take care in your journey and may you find compassion and understanding to carry you through.

 

[sedna]

My words might appear childlike, naive and unreflected. I am writing while being driven by anger so if...

I'm not sure, it's late here and I havent looked at your other posts, but are you the one that said you feel invisible when you aren't feeling impressive?
Like you dont matter or are even noticed if you cant bring the best image to the room?

 

[Rani G2]

@GrayOwl thanks for your beautiful words!
Homo sapiens, they say are herd animals, I dont see any place where I feel belonged. We've been conditioned, programmed to live in civilisation and that comes with a high price, like most things in life. I felt very much alone out on the ledge.

I will have to live now, so I will find ways

 

[sedna]

Sorry, I actually just sneezed and posted that. I think maybe it sounds to me like you're still struggling with that issue from before.
Its possible that humans arent letting you down, but the same type of humans you keep habitually focusing on.

I could be wrong, its just that I remember you from what you said about how you felt like you were worth nothing because you weren't perfect at some point.

 

[Rani G2]

@coco9

i might've even said this.

My problem, is that there is no effort coming from others When it comes to getting connected to others.

 

[sedna]

Sorry, I actually just sneezed and posted that. I think maybe it sounds to me like you're still struggli...

Just sneezed and posted that before I was done with my comment. :facepalm::facepalm::facepalm:

 

[Rani G2]

Wrong english....

 

[sedna]

@coco9

i might've even said this.

My problem, is that there is no effort coming f...

Shankara, the law of physics totally determines what we attract and repel. I say that reluctantly, because I have been bad at paying attention to it also.

Its relativity, Einstein's theory of vibrational science that turned into a lot of New Age Blah Blah for decades.

But in it is a grain of truth, that may be the most important truth to pay attention to.

You're attracting people who will reflect what you believe about yourself.

They arent the only ones around. They're the only ones you're noticing.

 

[sedna]

Wrong english....

Stop that! I dont care about your English! :hug:

 

[Rani G2]

@coco9

thanks for your view. Shall I stop? Its automatic I need a while to stop.
I've been thinking about this a while ago, given advice from my Therapist.Interesting aspect there, maybe I should observe that.

 

[sedna]

@coco9

thanks for your view. Shall I stop? Its automatic I need a while to stop.
I...

I meant stop apologizing for your English. For the love of God dont pay a therapist to translate that for you!

I think you should start noticing who you think doesnt matter in rooms, maybe they are the people that will mean something to you.