Damn Tired

[Bill Dickerson]

I'm so tired. I go through the motions of trying to be motivated. I was hoping on moving to a place in country but those dreams seem to have been dashed. I was doing real good working on the house keeping busy but things got fouled up real bad. I've been trying to work on the house but my heart really isn't into it.

I'll find another place and get my hopes up a little but my Mom makes up an excuse why it's not ok. Each time I sink back down into that pit of despair not knowing what my future will hold.

The despair is just crushing. Feels like there isn't any air in the room. I try to find something to work on and it always comes to my mind why the hell bother. I'm just exhausted thinking about it.

 

[anthony]

Sorry to hear Bill... that is anxiety that is crushing you.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I'm sorry @Bill Dickerson

 

[Sweet Girl]

Bill, I hear you loud and clear, right there myself. Actually laying in bed resting after forcing myself to accomplish a few thugs that have been looming over me today.

My therapist just walked through the fact that it it my anxiety crushing me right now, so to hear it from Anthony as well is somewhat validating. My T just discussed this with me on Weds so I've focused on using the tools I learned for reducing anxiety, like making sure I'm breathing, eating right, taking some alone time to rest or journal or whatever I want to do, exercising, etc. i can feel a big difference in my motivation today than the last few days because of it.

This time, my anxiety manifested itself through anger so it was completely masked to me. This is a new one for me.

Take care of yourself first and foremost.

 

[mamachick]

I feel it too, just so tired and cant find motivation to meet even daily goals, let alone long term goals. I attribute mine to health issues and two surgeries in the past 6 months, but I am so tired that everything seems like a big task. I didn't think of it being anxiety but I realize that can be exhausting.