Just became a member a few days ago, and I thought I would write an introduction about myself.
Was diagnosed with PTSD 2013 after years of suffering after a traumatic incident that happened in Dec 2004, took me about 2 years before the symptoms kicked in to the fullest, was probably in denial at first after the trauma. But as time went by I started to have nightmares, and always about the same thing just different scenarios, still have them today along with poor sleep, haven't slept a full night since this happened to me.
I suffer now from so many things due to this PTSD can't say it's an easy thing to live with every day, it's a battle to be honest, a challenge it changed my life so significantly, I don't even recognize myself anymore, definitely not the same person as I once was...
I now fear life, I hate changes, even the smallest change scares me...separation anxiety, fear of abandonment, claustrophobia, emotional flashbacks, can't close my windows, I always leave it slightly open even during winter because I feel like I am suffocation due to the trauma I went through, so therefore I cannot shut it completely (silly I know) but it messed with me quite bad.
So here I am today suffering with this condition that feels sometimes surreal to have, I feel like I lost parts of myself or shattered into a million pieces and I can't seem to find the pieces to rebuild myself.
Not ready to share my whole trauma experience yet...what actually happened, maybe with time.
Was diagnosed with PTSD 2013 after years of suffering after a traumatic incident that happened in Dec 2004, took me about 2 years before the symptoms kicked in to the fullest, was probably in denial at first after the trauma. But as time went by I started to have nightmares, and always about the same thing just different scenarios, still have them today along with poor sleep, haven't slept a full night since this happened to me.
I suffer now from so many things due to this PTSD can't say it's an easy thing to live with every day, it's a battle to be honest, a challenge it changed my life so significantly, I don't even recognize myself anymore, definitely not the same person as I once was...
I now fear life, I hate changes, even the smallest change scares me...separation anxiety, fear of abandonment, claustrophobia, emotional flashbacks, can't close my windows, I always leave it slightly open even during winter because I feel like I am suffocation due to the trauma I went through, so therefore I cannot shut it completely (silly I know) but it messed with me quite bad.
So here I am today suffering with this condition that feels sometimes surreal to have, I feel like I lost parts of myself or shattered into a million pieces and I can't seem to find the pieces to rebuild myself.
Not ready to share my whole trauma experience yet...what actually happened, maybe with time.
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