Depressed with the way things still are

[yellow rose]

Feeling depressed and sad today with the way things still are. I feel I am constantly living a lie. All the trauma I have been through and some days I feel depressed even throughout therapy, as I still cant reach those things that I need. I am constantly isolated I can hardly go out the house still. I know that maybe eventually I will get to the point of being able to get to these things that I want and need. But right now sometimes I still feel very confused and it depresses me that i am still so isolated that i still cant work out the answers as to how to get to things. i know that therapy is a process but i am completely tired of this process and of being isolated in the meantime. I get thoughts sometimes that I am being punished this may be related to the type of trauma I have been through. but still some days I feel I am still being punished, some days my mind still feels like a bad place and like I am not free to live how I choose. The way I am still living is making me depressed. My mind sometimes feels like a trap and sometimes this life feels like a trap not helped at all by the fact I can hardly get out the house
I have been crying a bit again today I feel so lost and confused and feel that all that positive stuff that others get I do not deserve.
I wish there was more answers right now

 

[ladee]

It can be depressing, how long this takes to start to feel and think better. And especially if you are so isolated. We only have the noise of what goes on in our own head to keep us company?

Do you have friends that can come by and visit sometimes, or have phone conversations with? Doesn't have to be about our problems, it can just be causal conversation.. Do you have someone you could invite to lunch or dinner and cook for them? something simple, but where you feel like you have accomplished something and had someone to share it with?

I have chronic depression too. And some days, I have to MAKE myself do small things. I always feel a little better afterward. But I do understand how you feel. Sending gentle hugs of understanding, if you accept.

 

[yellow rose]

It can be depressing, how long this takes to start to feel and think better. And especially if you are so isolated. We only have the noise of what goes on in our own head to keep us company?

Do you have friends that can come by and visit sometimes, or have phone conversations with? Doesn't have to be about our problems, it can just be causal conversation.. Do you have someone you could invite to lunch or dinner and cook for them? something simple, but where you feel like you have accomplished something and had someone to share it with?

I have chronic depression too. And some days, I have to MAKE myself do small things. I always feel a little better afterward. But I do understand how you feel. Sending gentle hugs of understanding, if you accept.

I am not always feeling depressed
But some days how isolated I am on top of the trauma stuff i am trying to recover from can make me feel more depressed
I do not have any friends no. I have my twin sister though she is like my best friend,
but she also deals with similar mental illness to me so can be very lonely still sometimes especially when she is upset and i am upset at the same time
I talk to people online sometimes, but I wish I had someone else i could talk to on the phone or see
I do try to accomplish things sometimes, like today i mananged to do twenty minutes of yoga this evening
Some days I do not feel that depressed i guess that is the nature of my mental illness and the dissociation I deal with aswell.
I guess sometimes if i make myself do something I can feel a little better
but sometimes I just wish that I knew how I could be capable of doing things outside . Just gets too much sometimes on top of all the stuff I have been dealing with
Sometimes I just wish I could have a change of scenery and I can't other than my garden which also can feel a bit trappings sometimes.
Thankyou

 

[Survivor3]

Hi yellowrose, it's the isolation that gets me aswell, I know how you feel. Best wishes to you.

 

[shimmerz]

What about getting a pet to get yourself out of your head a bit more?

 

[Survivor3]

What about getting a pet to get yourself out of your head a bit more?

yeah good idea, id love a dog so much but I'm looking for part-time work and it's not fair too leave them for long periods of time. Maybe in the future.