@EveHarrington - I hope you're feeling a little better today? You have every bit as much right to be here as any of us... working on healing isnt a requirement - I am sure everyone struggles through days, not being able to work on it...I know I have days and weeks and sometimes months that I barely exist... You dig yourself out of the hole by keeping in touch with all of us and using any thing you can to throw that dirt over your shoulder... you can do it, you deserve to be content and thrive.