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For those of you unfamiliar with my profile and therefore background (so most of you haha), I was sexually abused as a child by my grandfather. I haven't told a soul in order to avoid crushing the mentality of those I love. As for diagnosis, I haven't been officially sentenced to the daunting label of PTSD, though my psychiatrist strongly suspects I have it (My refusal to admit to having a trauma makes a diagnosis exceedingly difficult in my case...). If you would like anything stated previous in greater detail or have a burning question to ask regarding "left out" criteria which could help you better help me, please feel free to ask!
Anywho...I've been having quite a few dissociation episodes lately. Though likely attributed to the extent of sleep deprivation I've endured due to a flare up in nightmares these past two to three weeks, I'm at a complete and utter loss about how to play my next move.
The occurrence of dissociations has caused me not only to be in a state of daze for over half of my day, but also the alarmingly low turn out of my Semester Two report card. PTSD has already managed to grasp on to almost every aspect of my life; I hate watching it infect the few others. My recent outbursts of dissociation are furthering my already-troublesome memory retention as well as my ability to "stay in the present."
The dissociation itself feels light, almost queazy. When under its spell, my vision takes on a murky tone, my perspective no longer entirely in my body. I can, after much concentration, move a hand in front of me to try and snap myself out of it, but I view the hand as the work of another being instead of my own. It's odd.
These "waves" of dissociation result in great stress and the hindering of my mobility/clarity. Because of this, I would like some tips or techniques for grounding myself in times such as these. The "fog," so to speak, is seemingly impossible to come down from; I know, however, that there must be something to alleviate, if not relieve entirely, the clouds from my thought process and ability to respond.
In retrospect, the dissociation may seem pretty dang tolerable in comparison to the other tragedies which come with this disorder, but it would be helpful to have one less thing to worry about.
So please, if you have any techniques or tips regarding the management of dissociation, responses are very much appreciated!
Anywho...I've been having quite a few dissociation episodes lately. Though likely attributed to the extent of sleep deprivation I've endured due to a flare up in nightmares these past two to three weeks, I'm at a complete and utter loss about how to play my next move.
The occurrence of dissociations has caused me not only to be in a state of daze for over half of my day, but also the alarmingly low turn out of my Semester Two report card. PTSD has already managed to grasp on to almost every aspect of my life; I hate watching it infect the few others. My recent outbursts of dissociation are furthering my already-troublesome memory retention as well as my ability to "stay in the present."
The dissociation itself feels light, almost queazy. When under its spell, my vision takes on a murky tone, my perspective no longer entirely in my body. I can, after much concentration, move a hand in front of me to try and snap myself out of it, but I view the hand as the work of another being instead of my own. It's odd.
These "waves" of dissociation result in great stress and the hindering of my mobility/clarity. Because of this, I would like some tips or techniques for grounding myself in times such as these. The "fog," so to speak, is seemingly impossible to come down from; I know, however, that there must be something to alleviate, if not relieve entirely, the clouds from my thought process and ability to respond.
In retrospect, the dissociation may seem pretty dang tolerable in comparison to the other tragedies which come with this disorder, but it would be helpful to have one less thing to worry about.
So please, if you have any techniques or tips regarding the management of dissociation, responses are very much appreciated!
