That is sad, and I actually relate, but naturally the question was directed at the OP.
Back at Curious Moose: Seeking help in crisis is actually the first response, most basic, for little ones (or adults, for that matter). If you've been involved in any type of interpersonal trauma, this becomes somewhat less likely, unless there is a person you have established some safety with, which can be incredibly challening. I lost any sense of safety from humans. I am slowly trying to learn how to make that work, like a normal person.
If you are finding yourself in crisis situations, or even creating crisis situations, even if unconsciously, for attention or connection, that is likely something other that PTSD, but I can't say. Crisis is pretty real with PTSD...I have meltdowns over really stupid shit, but also why I'm isolating all the time because I can't trust others or deal with the extra stress of connecting with people or reaching out. Plus my crisis stuff makes no f*cking sense to anyone but my therapist. I've tried to explain a little to a friend but only for her sake because she wanted to help after picking me up from ER, but it was incredibly awkward...not the kind of attention or connection I wanted with her. She just couldn't understand. Most people don't love constant-crisis friends anyway.
You have to sort out what the primary issue is. If it's the crisis situations, then you learn how to work on coping through crisis. If it's the need for attention, and feeling like you can't get it without a crisis, that is the primary issue...ideally to be worked on in therapy (like I already noted: how to you find healthier ways to connect, or get to the root of that attention need).
