Claire, I understand what you have written here, I used run and walk. I worked in London and so you walked or took public transport everywhere -and both of these worked fine for me. And when I fell pregnant with my son there was no longer the option for driving lessons as every penny I had went towards him/us and making a home for us both. And still walking was not an issue for me.
It wasnt until I was attacked that I had a problem in this area and even then it took a few years to come out, I had damaged my leg and despite pain etc... I kept going, walking and carrying on in that respect as though nothing had happened. Until it started developing worse and impacted onto other areas of my body, like my back and hip. Even then it took me a few years to get to a doc and seek help (am doing physio now).
I ran the Chicago marathon with a friend of mine-she was there and I was here on a treadmill-yeah I got the better end of the deal maybe on that (although I would have happily run it in Chicago!). My point is I do understand and it is a trigger for me also and for a while there everytime I took a step, or moved funny or walked anywhere I was constantly reminded about what had happened, and not just the one assault either. It is getting better in that area, so I am really grateful for some things again now that I soo took for granted when I could do them well or perhaps just better than I do at the moment.
I understand about the first person shooter games and am glad I asked, thankyou all for explaining it to me here, and also for this thread; it has been interesting to see some of this from another angle. We all have stuff that triggers and can cause us so much grief, it may not always seem obvious on the outside to others, but there is a lot shared here, and a lot also understood. I guess in some ways running was like an escape for me, I used to love to run - feel my heart beat...so I do get what you are saying on various levels here, and I totally get the draw of what it is you have shared Fire. Glad to read that the cussing has lessend :) always a bonus with an 8 yr old.
Thankyou again and take care, oh and we had the London Marathon here today so I may have digressed just a little, but still on topic I think.
~fin
I'm thinking Sonic the Hedgehog doesnt count? ;) yeah no, its cool I didn't think so! Last video game I think I played with my son...but I know Halo he plays that now some.
It wasnt until I was attacked that I had a problem in this area and even then it took a few years to come out, I had damaged my leg and despite pain etc... I kept going, walking and carrying on in that respect as though nothing had happened. Until it started developing worse and impacted onto other areas of my body, like my back and hip. Even then it took me a few years to get to a doc and seek help (am doing physio now).
I ran the Chicago marathon with a friend of mine-she was there and I was here on a treadmill-yeah I got the better end of the deal maybe on that (although I would have happily run it in Chicago!). My point is I do understand and it is a trigger for me also and for a while there everytime I took a step, or moved funny or walked anywhere I was constantly reminded about what had happened, and not just the one assault either. It is getting better in that area, so I am really grateful for some things again now that I soo took for granted when I could do them well or perhaps just better than I do at the moment.
I understand about the first person shooter games and am glad I asked, thankyou all for explaining it to me here, and also for this thread; it has been interesting to see some of this from another angle. We all have stuff that triggers and can cause us so much grief, it may not always seem obvious on the outside to others, but there is a lot shared here, and a lot also understood. I guess in some ways running was like an escape for me, I used to love to run - feel my heart beat...so I do get what you are saying on various levels here, and I totally get the draw of what it is you have shared Fire. Glad to read that the cussing has lessend :) always a bonus with an 8 yr old.
Thankyou again and take care, oh and we had the London Marathon here today so I may have digressed just a little, but still on topic I think.
~fin
I'm thinking Sonic the Hedgehog doesnt count? ;) yeah no, its cool I didn't think so! Last video game I think I played with my son...but I know Halo he plays that now some.
