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SeekingAfrica
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@DharmaGirl Thank you, that's so sweet! Being in this forum has been so essential to my health. Happy belated birthday to you too! I'm sure the perspective is always different the older you get. Honestly I don't care about age, in fact the older I get the more comfortable I am in my own skin, which I like. But it's just been a rough year and I'm not happy with where I am in most areas in my life, especially work/finances and health, which are both major. So it's like my whole system is all out of balance.
But today was really nice though. Had ballet performance which went great, hung out with my ballet friends after, then we all went to class. And then all the girls sang happy birthday to me, and we had quite a nice time. It was a nice relief from the practical problems and the internal turmoil as well. Tomorrow will be the second hardest day I have this month, but at least today was good. Though the moment I went home my mood dropped. Probably because I'm scared about tomorrow. But still, one week down, and I am honestly proud to just be alive after how I felt a lot of the time. I think this might be the only place I can share this as achievement, but it feels like it is.
But today was really nice though. Had ballet performance which went great, hung out with my ballet friends after, then we all went to class. And then all the girls sang happy birthday to me, and we had quite a nice time. It was a nice relief from the practical problems and the internal turmoil as well. Tomorrow will be the second hardest day I have this month, but at least today was good. Though the moment I went home my mood dropped. Probably because I'm scared about tomorrow. But still, one week down, and I am honestly proud to just be alive after how I felt a lot of the time. I think this might be the only place I can share this as achievement, but it feels like it is.
