Yesterday in EMDR I felt resistance and tried to push on past it. My therapist gave me some extra time because she saw how frustrated I was.
What happened in EMDR yesterday was hard. I went though it over and over again with my past therapist. I would push past my resistance and dive right into the mess. I would leave the therapist office out of my mind and would need hours or days to recover. I can see a shake up as necessary at times, but yesterday was a self-inflicted wound. It was re-traumatizing.
My therapist understands that I don’t need to be re-traumatized. We talked about it at the end and agreed we need to target the resistance until it’s not a problem. We can’t just pass it by. Also I asked her not to extend the EMDR processing in hopes that I would push past the resistance. She agreed.
It actually felt really good to put these limits on processing. I needed to regain some sense of power there. I need to respect my resistance. I don’t need to push past it. It’s not just some bad part of me who needs to be punished or wants to ruin my progress. My resistance is there for a reason.
What happened in EMDR yesterday was hard. I went though it over and over again with my past therapist. I would push past my resistance and dive right into the mess. I would leave the therapist office out of my mind and would need hours or days to recover. I can see a shake up as necessary at times, but yesterday was a self-inflicted wound. It was re-traumatizing.
My therapist understands that I don’t need to be re-traumatized. We talked about it at the end and agreed we need to target the resistance until it’s not a problem. We can’t just pass it by. Also I asked her not to extend the EMDR processing in hopes that I would push past the resistance. She agreed.
It actually felt really good to put these limits on processing. I needed to regain some sense of power there. I need to respect my resistance. I don’t need to push past it. It’s not just some bad part of me who needs to be punished or wants to ruin my progress. My resistance is there for a reason.
