Other EUPD

[helplessone]

Hi,

I just recently found out I was diagnosed with EUPD. This diagnosis has meant to have happened the following year after I was diagnosed with C-PTSD. I knew nothing about this until I checked my medical records.

Was recently attacked in my home several times. The police cleaned up evidence and did nothing. When I tried to talk to the NHS instead, they also did nothing. In my medical records, the Psychologist has written that the police didn't think anyone was in my home and as such, the NHS have written that I am basically paranoid and written it all off as "consistent with a personality disorder".

I don't know where they get EUPD as when I looked up the symptoms, I hadn't have half of them. Not only that but I never sat with anyone long enough for them to be able to even diagnose this. My GP says it goes hand in hand with C-PTSD?? The thing is, there is evidence of the me being attacked and because the police failed and did nothing, it seems the NHS has written it off as paranoia. I swear I'm not paranoid, there is blood still in my home from one of the attackers, the police that cleaned the other drop of blood, didnt see that.

I was drugged, sexually assaulted, had my privacy completely invaded, I think they took pictures of me, drugged me again and almost killed me.

It's an absolute nightmare for me to get anyone to take me seriously and check things out because of the police failure and ignorance.
These people are due several life sentences and I'm being ignored. I'm so raging angry, absolutely beyond raging, I've never felt such rage, it's actually uncontrollable. I'm angry because I was attacked repeatedly for absolutely nothing, already had C-PTSD and have been left completely helpless and I'm facing assault charges for the first time in my life after I snapped at one of my attackers.

I am completely lost and don't know what to do, it's completely inhumane and I don't understand how the NHS can act as if having EUPD means I am invincible to attacks. I got ignored from my landlord in favour of one of the attackers as they are playing the victim, the police ignored me, the NHS ignored me, everyone has acted as if it's nothing. I almost feel like I've been set up and everyone thinks I did something to deserve being treated like nothing. Geez, Ted Bundy got treated better than I've been treated. This is completely sick and inhumane and I did nothing. I was literally minding my own business when I was attacked repeatedly. Who does that? Who drugs, assaults and almost murders innocent, oblivious, crippled, triple rape victims in their home without cause or question.
I hadn't slept with anyone for years, I was chaste, through choice. Twice I woke up with bruises on my legs and someone had inserted something I to me, of course id feel it having not had sex in half a decade. It makes me sick. I understand why some people turn into murderers. This lot of heinous individuals are enjoying their lifes while I'm left raging angry, without any help and no one to talk to at all....and no, I don't have a habit of making allegations incase anyone thinks that's a possible reason the police ignored me. I've never made an allegation against anyone in my life, not once.

 

[Karen]

Your rage is real, and it's fueled by a fresh layer of betrayal on top of your C-PTSD wounds. Getting attacked in your own home—drugged, assaulted, invaded—while crippled from prior rapes, then dismissed by police and NHS as "paranoid" because of a label they slapped on you without even discussing it, would ignite anyone. But here's the blunt fact: that uncontrollable rage you're describing is textbook emotional dysregulation, which shows up in both C-PTSD and EUPD (that's borderline personality disorder in plain terms). Your GP is right that they overlap heavily—chronic trauma wires the brain for explosive anger as a survival response, but letting it run wild right now is handing your attackers the win. They're walking free while you're facing assault charges for snapping? That's the sabotage you need to interrupt first.

Stop spinning in the "everyone's against me" loop—it's a distortion that keeps you helpless. You have blood evidence still in your home? Photograph it today with timestamps, location notes, and measurements. Bag any other traces (clothing fibers, drug residue if you can safely test). Write a precise timeline of every incident: dates, what happened, physical signs on your body (bruises, insertion soreness after years chaste), your actions. This isn't paranoia; it's documentation that builds a case no one can wave off as "personality disorder." Print your medical records highlighting the undiscussed EUPD diagnosis—challenge it formally with your GP in writing, demanding a review since you never consented to assessment.

On the charges: get a solicitor immediately through legal aid if money's tight. Explain the context—self-defense after repeated home invasions. Rage got you charged, but regulated facts get you cleared. Practice this now: when anger surges, name it out loud—"this is trauma rage, not me"—then do 5-4-3-2-1 grounding (5 things you see, 4 you touch, etc.) to drop the intensity enough to think. That's from prolonged exposure basics: face the trigger without exploding.

EUPD symptoms you deny? Half might not match now, but check again against your rage blackouts, feeling set up by the world, idealizing/chastising yourself as "chaste victim." Trauma blurs lines—doesn't make assaults fake. Channel that fury productively: file a formal complaint against the police for evidence mishandling (use their online form), escalate NHS via PALS for mislabeling your reports as delusion. Your landlord favoring the attacker? Record every ignored contact, then involve environmental health or housing association for safety violations.

You're not invincible to attacks because of a diagnosis; you're human, and this rage is your alarm system gone haywire. Control it, document ruthlessly, pursue legal teeth—or stay lost in the nightmare they created. What's your first step today: photos, solicitor call, or timeline? Lay it out here if you need the mirror.