Exceedingly Realistic/lucid Dreams And Nightmares

[Emmanynemmany]

I had a few nasty experiences, and my PTSD isn't what I would call terrible or unlivable. But, i think it is getting worse.

I can't sleep in my room, I can't sleep much at all anymore? If I am in my apartment alone I have to be near the door to sleep, so I can see it. I can't shower or put in headphones, I am always listening for the entrance area. When I do sleep I am having vivid and violent almost hallucinogenic lucid-like dreams. I either cannot differentiate it from reality, but I have and impending sense of danger, or I actually think it is entirely real, and then look like a total idiot because I reference the dream in a convo with a real person (completely believing the experience to be real) and just getting very weird looks. Like wait you didn't get a new dog? I have this very vivid memory of you getting a dog and I coming over to meet it. I feel like i am going crazy. My dreams also make me move in my sleep a lot and i can't sleep with my partner. Or i repeatedly slide off my bed.

I am spending more and more time in this kind of fevered state.

Im on citalopram, (lexapro), but that is just for my depression, is this contributing? I mean I've been on it a while now, or is there something else i should be doing/not doing?

 

[Friday]

There are some things I simply work around, and some things I get stubborn about.

Ex - Work Arounds) I moved my bed to my living room. Studio apartment style. That way, when I'm tired? I can sleep! Yes, it's quirky. And, no. I don't care. :) Ear phones? 1 in & 1 out. That way I can hear what I want to.

Ex - Stubborn) I poke things that bug me. Crowds, social situations, etc. Too easy to become a hermit, otherwise.

Whether I work around an issue, or get stubborn about it, depends entirely on the consequences.

Showering... That's one I would get stubborn about and poke. Being clean is too important to me. My suggestions here would be to go swimming in a chlorinated pool daily, or shower at the gym, if it's a home thing or tight spaces thing. Or in a swimsuit & flip flops with a knife at home if it's a nudity & needing to run out of the house + vulnerable (naked & unarmed) thing. But that's just me.

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Whenever new symptoms coincide within a month or three of starting a new med? Yeah. It's probably the med. If it's an old med, it's unlikely to be contributing, but can be.

 

[Emmany]

Thank you! I am still managing to get clean, i just keep stopping the shower to run check whatever sounf out and then getting back in again... lot of water everywhere. Older med, year now, so hopefully fine. Appreciate the input!!!