Fallen Into A Deep Depression

[Ghostybear73]

Well, this year is not turning out so great and it's only March. I started the year off with a cast after surgery and couldn't type. I had a nervous breakdown and had to take a leave from work and now, I've fallen into this depression where all I do is cry and lay in bed. Yes, I have managed to make it to work, but it so hard to do especially when you care so little about everything. For those of you that know me, this is a complete turn around from my norm, which is no sleep and no crying. It's almost like I'm trying to catch up from the last 35 years. My psychiatrist is scratching his head at such a drastic change, so fast. My therapist just gives me a line of shit about how I have reason to be this way. I suppose if I was thinking of the past and starting crying, I would understand, but to start crying while talking to my husband about dinner? I just can't handle it, it's too much and that's one of the reasons I've been off this site. Just getting on the computer takes every effort I can muster.

To those of you I call my friends, I'm not ignoring you......I'm ignoring the world and I can't wait to get out of this and enjoy the life I have built for myself!!!

:hug:s

 

[TXbandit]

:hug: Ghosty. Sorry you are having a hard time, hun. Hang in there

 

[Nighthawk]

Oh Ghosty I hate the weeping willow and have no idea what has caused the tears. I am so sorry you are in this fiiing depresive dark place. I hope the lights come on soon.

Thinking of you

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

So sorry you are having such a difficult time right now. I've been there. It sucks. I am thinking good thoughts for you.

 

[asldjfasldjf]

Sending good vibes and so sorry you're having a difficult time right now.

Just a thought: the affect physical stress can have on your emotional well-being is hard to overstate. The physical stress/trauma of surgery and the stress of recovering could have put you in a tailspin.

Perhaps the best thing to do right now is take advantage of your ability to sleep and cry. It sucks to be on the other end of an extreme, but perhaps just thinking of it as a "catch-up" period/giving your situation a positive spin will help. Also, whatever you can do to help your body right now will probably benefit your overall condition. Trying to eat a little better than usual or take some supplements (or just plain old pampering yourself) should help a bit.

And if nothing helps and life just sucks, I'm sorry :depressed: sometimes life's just a pile of :poop: and there's nothing to be done about it. Sending hugs! :hug:

 

[ms spock]

Depression after surgery or anaesthesia is a thing @Ghostybear73. A couple of my friends have had it bad.

[DLMURL]https://www.myptsd.com/c/albums/the-mindful-way-through-depression-full-youtube.802/[/DLMURL] This has helped me I don't know if it would help you. Just a suggestion.

Are you familiar with the stress cup theory?

 

[Sammyiam]

Hi ghosty, I have been thinking about you any time you need to talk I'm here.

Your friend

Sammy

 

[Ghostybear73]

Thank you all for your support and well wishes. @Ms Spock I am familiar with the stress cup theory and I am pretty sure my cupeth hath ran over. I'm working on getting everything back level, but it's not easy when I have to fight to get out of bed. But I do fight and will continue to fight as that's what I am.......a fighter.

 

[Sammyiam]

Hi Ghosty, I hope you are feeling a little better just know I am thinking of you and wishing you all the best to fight this and get back up on your feet.
Please take care

Sammy

 

[Ghostybear73]

I have finally gotten a med change that I believe is working and I'm climbing, albeit slowly, out of this dark hole.

Thanks again for all the support from everyone. :)

Ghosty